There is light at the end of Every tunnel!

[Leo76]

I have come across this web page looking for answers to a medical question. I have been reading your posts. I am now a non smoker for over a year, I smoked for 12 years. I became a drug addict when my now x-husband introduced me to heroin. We smoked it for two years. From leaving my heroin addiction, I moved to crack cocaine. Then one day I sat in the mess that I was in, with lack of sleep, knowing that this isnt who I wanted to become, nor was it who I was deep within myself, I wanted to know how it was that things got so bad. How did I end up at this place, I was at? Somehow I knew to speak to God because He was the only one that ws going to save me from myself. I just started to talk outloud,.....God please help me, please let me know that everything id going to be ok. In any moment of desperation, I promise you, as I did that you will find the Truth. You will realize that we aren't here to live these lives where we are to be surrounded with sickness and pain. Where we are not to feel love, or we are to lose it everytime we turn our backs. There is life. There is love. You just need to cry out and believe in something greater than yourself. If you choose to call the greater someone God, then that is what He is called. He is Spirit. All that we are. Along with these addictions, I had quit them and decided to restart my journey, to getting better. I quit everything cold turkey. I soon found myself drinking constantly. After I had got my son back and left my x-husband, I was going to a doctors appointment and I was in a car accident that left my son, uninjured, and myself dead for over 7 minutes. I was in the hopsital for several weeks and all I remember of this time is being dead and my experience of it. It took me many months of counselling to get my son back. That was in 2004, and here we are. I am now healthy and I am going back to college for my bachelors degree in social work. I volunteer at my son's school with primary children. I go to church on sundays and I am always doing everything to ensure my happiness.
I believe that through all and everything that we go through, that it is our responsibility to ourselves to ensure that we are learning who we are fully and completely in every moment. The thing is, we we truly knew ourselves, than we would never let anything bad happen while we were watching over us. It truly is unbelievable when you think about our poor ability to care for ourselves as human beings. What is the point in living? How do we honestly believe that we are capable of loving another if we arent capable of loving our own selves? Believe me my road is long and winding just as yours, I live now with a brain injury from a car accident that I was in when I was 17, (my first of the two accidents) not my fault, and I am on medication for my life, I live with chronic pain in my legs and I also live with crohns disease, wich I am on medication for also. both are life threatenng. If there are any words of reassurance that I could spread out like widfire among many, it would simply be this.........Live in the moment-for the moment! Be aware that you are there and be aware of how you are feeling. If ever you arent feeling good or you are unhappy-ask yourself why that is-and make change. Make a decision to change all that is not good for yourself. Live to love all that you are and all that you wish to become. You have one life as we all do, this is something that all of us as humans have in common,....so regardless of our experiences, we all have one chance to make our life be all that we dream for it to become. Be happy! Be loving! Be kind! Be thoughtful! Be healthy! Be sincere! Be prosperous! Be giving! Be all that you feel you are worthy of being, and I will tell you that God didn't put us here to live a live where we do everything in our power to hide from ourselves and our feelings. How is that living? Our main problem is that we run scared from ourselves when we feel-when in reality, makes sense that we haven't a clue of who we are because we don't take the time. We skip that part every chance we get. Choose to live being who you are. Get to know yourself in your own experience with others. When you do, when you take the time to notice, you will unlock the greatest secret of All,................You are God's Greatest Miracle!

[sway1]

thank you for your post. i am reconnecting right now to my faith even though i never really lost it, but rather set is aside. i am finding out again how beautiful life can be even though my family is going through alot of technical difficulties at present. i am not in a bad mood all the time like my hubby. all he does is worry and feel the financial burdens of life closing in on him. it is choking his spirit. i keep trying to brighten his outlook and remind him that things could be so much worse, but to no avail. sorry i have gotten sidetracked. guess i needed to get that off my chest. your message is important and i hope it gets read by many especially those still suffering. this diseade is so wasteful and destructive. our time here is precious for it is a fine and delicate thread that holds us to this life. i spent years YEARS seemingly trying to break that thread, and only by the grace of my creator, did i survive. i can smile again. the real one. miracles do happen. you are proof of this. peace, sway

[gizzy32]

You have been through a lot it sounds like. Just wanted to say congrats on turning your life around and being happy. So you have been clean for 6 years or so? Did I read that right? What kinds of meds are you taking?