How much longer??

[jayleigh3]

I am a 28 year old mother of 3 beautiful children and this is my second time trying to get off vicodin.  The first time I had help with suboxone and it went nice and smooth, however when I stopped taking the suboxone less than a month after I was prescribed them. I began taking the vicodin for minor aches and pains again and it soon turned into an addiction of around 20-30 7.5mgs a day.  I no longer have the option of suboxone because of the price of the script.  I decided I was unable to go cold turkey at home even with the help of my husband because they were just too easy to get so I came to my mothers house 600 miles from home to deal with this.  I am currently on day 4 of withdrawls and have managed to get dressed today but that is about it.  Most of the worst of the wd is behind me but now I feel like it wasn't worth it.  I feel so down and depressed and I'm sooo scared that this is what I will feel like for the rest of my life. How am I going to WANT to keep the house clean, make dinner, tend to the horses, play with my kids, and help with homework without the extra pick-me-up happiness from the vicodin?  I still can't think properly and I just don't feel "right".  It feels like my brain is short circuiting and I can't make a complete thought that makes sense.  When is this going to stop?  I am absolutely terrified that I am going to feel like this forever and I just can't.  I have to have energy to keep my kids, hubby and self happy but I simply can't find it.  When am I going to feel normal again?  When am I going to WANT to get out of bed and out of the house?  I have been watching this site for the past 4 days and everyone has been so helpful, this site has definately helped-Thank you.

[road2recovery]

welcome, and congrats on getting this far...Day 4 is a very tough day, after this day , everyday will get better physically...After that some mental stuff will come..For me i had to get on lexapro to help with that..I know it seems impossible right now..But that will change...Try to keep yourself out of your head..Try to stay busy, watch a good movie..When u can try and take a walk again...you will be surprised how that will make you feel...force yourself to eat...Eating and alot of fluids, helps sooo much...Please dont' give up...I remember when my youngest gave me a hug, and I was like wow I actually feel this...Hard to explain, but i could not stop hugging her, the numbness goes away, and when the fog clears, you will be amazed!!!

We are here to help you every step of the way....Keep telling yourself you can do this!!!!
god bless and good luck
r2r

[jayleigh3]

I checked around here for NA meetings and the next one isn't until next Tues.  I went outside for a minute but was completely exhausted and couldn't think of anything to do so I came back in.  I can't imagine doing anything without the vics.  They gave me the energy and drive to WANT to do something.  All I can think of today is I just can't.  Thank god I don't know anyone around here with them cause I would be trying.  As the day goes on it just gets worse.  

[beatingthis]

Good work getting to day 4! Day 4 was the worse for me. It will pass. Try to go for a walk.
Any type of moving is good. I know it will be hard. day 20 for me. Well later today it will be day 20. It will get better. It takes 5 to 7 days and I still have the sleep problem but it is getting better. Don't be scared it will pass I promise. Are you taking care of yourself, Eating, Vits, moving. It is so woth it. The more you move the better it will be. It was for me. I had to make myself do something, anything. Even if I could only take a few steps and sit down. Have you looked into aftercare, NA meeting or things like that?
Keep posting, everybody here has been through it.

You can do this!

T.