Hydrocodone Addiction Please Help Me!

[Celisha]

I am a 33 year old mother, no pre existing medical conditions, after giving birth last year I became dependant on hydrocodone, at first it helped the pain, then began to help with the energy, and before you knew it I was hooked, line n sinker. As of today I feel like a slave to these pills, and the mental aspect of knowing what I want and need to do seems like it would make it easy, as I have never had anything in my entire life with such control over me. I WANT desperately to be done, I want to be healthy again, for these two beautiful blessings God bestowed me with and for myself and my happiness. I take 3-4 10 mg daily, somedays less yesterday for instance I stopped at 2.5 yet woke up at 2 am suffering stomach cramps n restlessness. I have no where to turn, a treatment center is not ideal because I have responsibilities as a mother that I can't just put on hold, I  need to do this by myself at home and painless as possible( haha, right?!)  Any suggestions as what would help alleviate symptoms? I will also not be having assistance of a medical professional as far as prescriptions. I am looking for natural or over the counter help.
Thank You For Listening. Hope to find answers soon.

[starshine7]

amen to that! I feel you, been through the same...I'm always amazed at how MANY people suffer from this hell!

Peace to you ~

[Celisha]

Or better yet, I feel like I am winning. This quote inspired me today "LIfe is Way to short too spend another day at war with yourself". And it certainly is!

[Celisha]

Thank you so much for your motivation, and support. I think keeping positive has found my way around a lot of situations, so I figured this one especially needed it. My fiance is a way deeper subject, that like you said I have decided to not focus on during my detox, but after my emotions stabilize and I see how I can handle his use as well as his pressure for me to just take a pill and feel better(which regardless of his temptations, I held Head strong last night) Any more info on after support groups? I don't know much about it, and I am still feeling a little withdrawn socially at the moment, but am hoping with my recovery that will also heal. Thanks again, it means more than I could have imagined to have support, I don't feel alone, and I think that is helping too. : ) It's 12 pm and its been since 6 am yesterday since I have had 5 mg of hydrocodone, I feel like I am doing it!

[nursegirl6572]

I agree with all of the posters, and just wanted to lend my support!!!  You absolutely can and should take the Immodium for the diarrhea that comes with w/ds, but only as per the instructions on the package.  You were trying to take it in large amts to ease w/d in general (which some people do).  I agree 200% that that is a bad idea.  Just take it as it is intended, to help with the scooters.  That's perfectly fine.

You have a GREAT attitude, and since you're on a pretty low dose, you will do very well.  You're smart to be concerned about your fiancee's use.  That WILL put you at a much higher risk for relapse.  You don't have to figure everything out right this minute, but it's an issue that will need addressed in some way down the line.

When you feel better, you must develop and start working an aftercare plan.  Aftercare can be in the form of professional therapy, NA/AA meetings, outpatient recovery groups, etc.  The more you do to work your aftercare, the more successful you will be long term.  You can never do too much, but you CAN not do enough.  From what everyone here says, and it makes sense, GETTING clean is the easy part..staying clean is much harder, and with your fiancee, you have some extra challenges.  That's where aftercare will be so very helpful for you.  The support people will help you explore your options, and how to safeguard your sobriety when someone in your life is still using.  

Very best to you...you're in my prayers.

[EvolverU]

All Blessings to you, girlfriend! Love the attitude. Sounds like you've got very good instincts. Getting out of the house and into the sun (hopefully, you've got some today.) will help with mood, too. Any kind of exercise, even walking at a good clip will help speed detox, rekindle endorphin function and might even help with sleep.

[Celisha]

Thank you for your encouragement. It is much needed. I took only 7 of the Immodium, I was searching for a miracle cure I guess, but quickly realized that the recommended 20 pill dose was outrageous, and thanks for the better insight on the Immodium effects, I have decided to leave them be, as I felt like flushing the toxins was ok,(as long as I can stay home). I am on the water, I feel dried out, so its easy to guzzle it down. And tonight I will be trying Epsom Salt, on my way to drug store yday I thought of it, but hadn't read anyone suggest it, so I didn't think I was right in it detoxing in my case. Thank You again, I feel Positive, and I am loving the feeling, kinda outweighs the negative some.