Day 5 Roxi blues (30) detox C/T

[supasoxfan]

holy **** I'm on a roller coaster. I can honestly say that the first four days were so bad that I'm literally unable to piece them together. it's as though my mind is blocking out the torture as a form of self-preservation. I'm absolutely freezing ALL of the time. RLS, so shaky, heart thundering and it feels as if it's coming right outta my chest, tired--but awake. beyond tired. I'm a mom of two young boys and I'm married to the best guy (who has no idea about my habit). I've been doing the math and I've easily spent 40K (that I don't have to spend) on these ******* pills. I love snorting them, but when running low I'd eat them bc they last longer. I mixed Xanax and Valium with the Roxis daily. Oftentimes I'd have an 8 ball of blow over the course of 3-5 days mixed in there, too. and always plenty of herb.  I've never met an opiate I didn't love. more than any other drug. access to H, but never went there bc that was my mental "line"--wtf is the difference? dope is dope is dope. I'm coming up on a year and a half of living life dictated by a tiny blue pill. When I'd get more, straight to the bathroom and double down immediately. 60 mg straight to the dome via my nose. About a year in, I could put away 10-12/day. Only recently did I dial that back and aim for b/w 4-6/day. Welp, my wake up call was the seizure I suffered 8 days ago that landed me in the ER. There, they put in an IV and all the Diluadid I wanted. So, here I am. I've even still got blues in the house (4.5). what.the.****? I know I should flush em, and I've definitely wanted them--but haven't done it--I feel physically better today than any other day, but now I'm on the dr circuit to find out about the seizure, which I'm sure is drug related, but I've yet to reveal to anyone. I bought them off the street and the day I decided to quit (3 days after seizure--it literally took me an additional 3 days to decide that maybe?? just maybe I had a problem) I erased my connection's name from my phone. I'm astonished he hasn't hit me up bc I was paying his bills while mine piled up! Thoughts? Advice? Been there (here)? Thx, supa

[supasoxfan]

yes. I stopped the Xanax the day I ran out. I was taking them as prescribed: 1 1mg pill 2 x daily. but I'd share or trade or add Valium as I had it on top. I'm pretty sure that's what caused the seizure. it was ******* scary.

[atthebeach]

did you stop the Valium and xanax abruptly?
That could definitely have caused seizures?
How much did you use and was it regularly?

[supasoxfan]

wow. thanks, guys. I'm on a small dose of prescribed Xanax, and I've been taking it to try to help with sleep only. Valium was never prescribed. I'm wondering if my seizure was related to the benzo withdrawal I was definitely starting to experience as I'd run out the day if the seizure and had to wait 3 more days to fill my script. I'm also wondering about weight loss? has anyone dropped significant weight while using opiates? I lost close to 45 lbs in 17 mos. I'm 5'4", 115 lbs now. thanks for the support. back to the dr tomo am for an EEG (brain wave test). I had an MRI of my brain yesterday. my resolve and determination are very solid and I'll do everything to stay off the pain pills. I've been a long-time member of Al-Anon (my husband has 7 years, 2 mos sober from alcohol). N/A meetings that I've attended have often been a hotspot to find out where to score. I also go to open AA meetings and I find that space to be so supportive and welcoming. I've learned so much about the disease of addiction, and I even recognized it in myself very early on. it got to the point where I didn't get high at all anymore--I was simply terrified about withdrawal. today is day 6 and I'm feeling ok. I literally watched the sun set, enjoyed the moon and stars, and then the sunrise. not a wink of sleep. that was the first night I didn't get any sleep whatsoever. I'm nervous bc I'm tied to my house now bc I can't drive until mNy tests are done to determine if I'll have more seizures. it's very rural where I live and the loneliness factor is likely gonna make me lose my $hit tomorrow. Thankfully though, I should be able to nap later today when my 3 year-old does. the tremors have lessened, and my heart rate is calmer. then again, morning has been better each day and progressively declines as the day goes on. the feedback and support are absolutely strengthening my resolve. thank you with complete sincerity.

[spider6]

Hey there girl, welcome!
Congrats on the day 4 being over!  Day 5 is usually a turning point for many, myself included.

The shakiness, heart racing.....I would use this man, just get up and do some stuff that needs to be done....the no brain stuff. lol
You're doing amazing and you sound strong, but inner strength will
not be enough if you have pills avail.  I know I couldn't do it.  If you are
serious, you need to flush em.  then put a bubble around yourself and territory and let it be known, there's no drugs or addicts or pushers aloud!

This is a great place for you to be, keep reading and posting...and look forward to a plethera of information and support coming your way......just as soon as everybody wakes up.  :o]

*****question,  are you still taking xanax/valium??  Hope you aren't c/t those.....dangerous.......seizures,...death.

I hope to follow your post and celebrate your success!
peace hope and hugs. xo
We'er all in this together.

[lizbuzz]

Thank You Rosie I should not be typing while I'm getting ready to go to sleepI had to read it Twice sound like a drunk  but thank you for saving my butt girl have a good night....great 1st impressons

[Pat1956100]

Wow, you really do have a problem and yes many of us have been there and done that.  I am concerned about the seizure.  You really need to be honest with your doctor.  Don't worry, they have heard it all before and you may be pleasantly surprised with the help you receive from him.
Day 5 is fantastic so now it's time to treat your body with love and care.  Eat healthy, take vitamins, drink lots of fluids and force yourself to exercise.  It's a tough battle but you can do it if you really want it.
Start by getting rid of what you have left, deleting your dealers number and telling your doctor.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

[ROSYouralright]

Hi and WELCOME to the forum! Sounds like you are in the thick of WD'S right now!HANG IN THERE bc your breakthrough is right around the corner...
As the above said..
STAY HYDRATED....
LOTS OF FLUIDS...
KEEP BUSY, Believe it or not exercise helps! Get up and get moving especially when you don't feel like it.. Even if you just sit outside and soak up some sunshine..,
MOST IMPORTANT
DO NOT GIVE UP!
You are not alone in this....
WE ARE HERE FIGHTING WITH YOU

[lizbuzz]

hi and welcome to the community sorry for my first post it's kind off  you can check in  while you'll see some of our other group members come by and they have better information for you so keep posting stay close and don't give up somebody come by with better information in the meantime check out that Thomas recipe on theRight side of the bottom of the page..lizzy......kinda slow for time of night

[lizbuzz]

hi welcome to our community please stick around its kinda late right now and most other people are not onI'm glad you found this place they have great support on this forum so please continue to check in on the bottom right the page there is a Thomas recipe you can look at remember to have imodium lots of Gatorade lots of water make sure to stay hydratedthey should be a Thomas Rhett on the bottom of the page and plenty of water and make sure people with symptoms or anything in there will be other people have more experience the good I will be able to help you a lot I'll be on for a little while longer so if you have any questions feel freE