120 hours and counting!

[bear_necessities]

I've been clean off of my doc since Monday morning, and it's been 97 hours since I've taken 1 mg of subutex. I have no major withdrawals except for a little stomach discomfort and restless leg last night. I know the subutex has a long half life but I feel I dodged a major bullet this time around.  I feel pretty good overall. I'm about to go watch my 6 year old son go play his football game!  Anyone else have success with with a low dose 1 day subutex program? Maybe I need to write a report on my findings? Lmao! Anyway it feels good to be drug free again. I'm in my music phase right now.  I love the way it releases endorphins! To those still fighting the good fight I'm here with you.

[bear_necessities]

Thank you all who have replied. I'm going to my first meeting Monday night with my brother, and I'm hoping to start training in a local boxing club soon. I have been trying to identify my triggers the last couple of days and think I've found a few already. Pain is my first trigger. It's just always been so easy to say "Oh! My back hurts. Time for a pill." I have to learn to cope with pain. My second trigger is boredom. That's why I'm wanting to join this boxing club. Idle hands are the devils playground, right? My third trigger us alcohol. Not that it necessarily leads me to pills, but it does take me back the old cocaine road.  The last one ive discovered is my patience. I just blew up on my kids, and now I feel like a total schmuck. I guess I just discovered another trigger.  I carry this sense of self guilt to the point where I devalue myself and my existence.  Just another bump on the road of life I guess. My mom always told me you can't love anyone else if you don't love yourself. I guess I have a lot towork on...

[dominosarah]

Congrats on your clean time!!  Are you doing anything with recovery care?

[ROSYouralright]

Congratulations! Your positive attitude will carry you through. Keep your guard up and keep on keeping on!

[ariley13]

Congratulations on your 120 hours clean! Keep up all the hard work, keep pushing forward, and never, ever look back! Keep the music on and loud! It helps so, so much. Take care and have a great weekend! :)