Hello, everyone my names James Wright and I'm 16 years old. I started taking drugs by smoking pot when I was 14, this was truly out of couriosity. However, as school got harder and I realized how socially pathetic I am do to Asperger's it became more of a crutch. I have and still do anything from alcohol, opiates, amphetamines and many other things. However, I have avoided crack cocaine and meth do to seeing how my friends act on it.
Now, that you have a bit of background on me I would like to talk about a mistake I recently made. First, of all I have a great relationship with my grandpa. I've told him and continue to tell him my experiences with softer drugs as he doesn't approve of me using hard drugs. Well lets just say he basically thought I smoke pot and shrooms which he gave up ten years ago when he got a job. But, back to my problem. My family went on vacation and my grandpa happend to have a bottle of 100 7.5 Oxycodone 325 APAP. This excited me because I hadn't had opiates in a few months so I had no tolerance. It looked like my grandpa used the sparingly so I didn't think he would count them. So over this whole vacation I took 20 of them. I"m not going to lie they made the vacation amazing and made the cabin so cozy. However my problems occurred when he called me up tonight and asked me of I had taken them. I told him everything as he assured me it would change nothing between us. This finally made me realize I need help and a place to vent so I decided to come here. My grandpa made it clear he wanted it to be like it never happend. I need suggestions for a better path. Although my grades couldn't be better I need to stop using drugs as a crutch. It just feels like there the only thing that makes my brain click to connect and socialize with people.