When Does the anxiety End?

[jjbird]

I am 8 days clean from hydrocone and the anxiety is really driving me crazy. At some moments I feel really great like the old me then others the anxiety really gets me and it feels like my heart is coming come out. My chest tightens and my heart is sad like a terrible breakup.  I have no friends here where I live really so stay at home with my kids. My family is ok but doesn't really understand. And I want to move so bad from here. I hate so that doesn't help matters but don't know where I  want to go. I feel alone most of the time and my former best friend here kind of sold me short and used me as a scapegoat so she wouldn't lose her job. She was my boss and I quit work when she started treating me unkind and my marriage was on the rocks. My hubby and I are great but he works alot. I have been looking for a job but no luck. I used to just get a little uneasy with I stayed home with kids and I don't believe its them. I feel like I have no one out in the world really after loosing my best friend. And my other friend calls me once in a blue moon. I am also the type of person that will do anything for anyone then I get screwed.

[jjbird]

I do take prozac for depression and it helps a little.  Getting out of the house helps alot but meeting people is just hard. For one I feel like people of staring at me then 2 dont wanna go thru want I did with my supposedly best friend with anyone else. Thanks for the advice and yes coming here helps. I feel a little better today with the anxiety. My head is a little more clearer so that is good.

[cleanmom]

I really hear you and want you to know that you aren't alone with these feelings. I am just over 30 days clean and the depression and anxiety is a killer. I have two kids at home with me and i too am a stay at home mom for now and it makes it so much harder, you know when you are also responsible for childrens happiness. I would talk with your doctor to see if they can prescribe you something for depression. It might really help. My doctor recently put me on Cymbalta and hoping to feel a difference soon. I also dont get out much and feel very sad much of the time. Hang in there girl and see what other sources of support you can get for yourself. Maybe a counselor and some meetings. And when all else fails, come here. Thats what i do. We are here for each other. You can PM me anytime, i am on quite often. Good luck and God Bless, Luv, Jacky

[sweatinit]

Hi JJ,

Sorry you're having a rough time and feeling so lonely. That stinks! Keep posting here. I have made soem really great friends and when i need to talk, tey are here. I too am alone alllllllll day and its gets to be a drag after awhile.

Hang in there and pm me anytime.

Kathy

[TroubledDude]

I know that feeling all too well, especially after the initial physical detox, when your mind is going through it's withdrawal. Do you have AA or NA available in your area? I have not been to a meeting myself but do plan on attending soon. Several people on here swear by it and say it is a definite requirement for both support from those who know what you're going through as well as a great means for keeping sober.

TD