I dont wanna relapse

[Opiategurl]

I have so much to do over the next few days and I feel lethargic as hell. Been sober 48 hours now and I know if I did an opana Id be able to do everything I need to do. But I also know that it would start this gruling process over and that would SUCK.....guess I'm looking for some inspiration....or.....someone to come over and do my chores for me...LOL....ugh....

[DayToTry]

Hey Opiategurl ... I know you said you have a lot to do and actually that's kind of a blessing.  I know its kind of hard to make yourself do it, but just put one foot in front of the other and it will get easier once you get started.  Something to do actually takes your mind off of all the withdrawal crap.  When you're just laying on the couch every minutes seems to pass like an hour.  It's the making yourself get up that's the hardest part.

Good luck to you.

[gnarly_1]

HI .....Glad to see your making it...GET RID OF THAT PILL it only going to call your name when you have a bad day....im 410 days clean and still cant have them in the house if I know where they are.....my wife has a torn rotorcuff and gets oxycodone for it I told her to hide the script out of site out of mind im fine most of the time but there are days that I really dont need to know where they are....never under estimate addiction it is cunning and baffling and powerful...it will bring you down as soon as you show weakness and like I said we all get are days.....I wish you the best of luck in your recovery plug into aftercare to help with the mental mindscrew and you'll be fine good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[lifewithoutcoke]

It will get easier, I promise. Your whole body is just thrown off track. If you can stand the amino acids, do it. I swear they've helped me. LOL, and as a woman with really BAD PMS, I know how much harder that makes everything for you. You're doing so good, keep hanging on :)

And yeah, this is a great place to be for support:)

[Opiategurl]

Thanks everyone...I'm doing ok. And Im pretty sure youre all responcible for me getting this far. I counldnt quit till I found this site. Did lots of searching. Anyway, day one of back to work since I've been sober. sigh....

[justneedtotalk]

Hang in there......As you may well know, every time we relapse the withdrawals get worse and worse.  You are almost to hump day and if you prolong your chores for just a couple of more days you will be able to get past the worst of this.  The worst part of this disease is the mental challenges after you get past the physical effects.  For me, this was the hardest part.  Unfortunately, the lack of energy and anxiety lingers around a bit but if you stick with your vitamins and can work some exercise into your routine (even though it is probably the last thing you feel like doing) will help the effects of withdrawal.  

Just think.....If you can make it through the next couple of days you will start feeling better and a few days after that you will start feeling more and more like yourself!  Hang in there and good luck!

[MV77]

Thanks for posting back.  I totally know what you are going through I am too jumping and crawling out of my skin.  Getting hylands for the leg issues hope it helps, maybe you can try it also? The emotions and crying are awful but I guess it is good to get it out.
GO YOU for sure!  Congrats  : )

[nooneknows214]

One other thing and you said you get jitters so I don't know, BUT....  5 Hour energy has worked wonders for my working hours.

[nooneknows214]

After being off Percs/Vics for 4 months earlier this year, the pulled me back in for about 5 months.  I'm currently in hour 40 so we're close.  The sad part is, I did take the one last pill 40 Hours ago after being off for 24.  I'm just ticked with myself, because I'd be that much closer.  Beside the sleep issues I'd be doing ok.  I guess 6 months at about 4 to 5 a day wasn't all that bad.  The w/d last time were much worse.  I had been on the crap, 6 to 10 per day for over a year and a half.  I can't do this again !  

[Opiategurl]

Lets see...I'm too tired to do math but my last line was 6:30pm sunday night. So I'm doing pretty good. Still crawling in my skin a little so I try to sleep most of the time. Thank GOD for Klonopin. The vitamins do help. I do it about twice a day. I've only done L-tyrosine once since I'm afraid of jitters. I have anxiety bad enough as it is. I cant even drink a whole cup of coffee. But My period is four days late. I took a test and it said negative so I guess my body is just flipping out. My PMS has me balling every night. I wish I would just start already. But I'm clean so GO ME....I dont feel any cravings and I still have one pill staring me down so Im stronger now then I was before. OK...thats my update....

[MV77]

How are you doing today?  I hope you are keeping up the good work.  Just wanted to check in with you.  
p.s. don't forget to smile every now and then  : )

[wendy111]

you got one or two more difficult days. try to stay strong and do alittle at a time. I too thought a few pills would get me to finish everything at home and I did relaspe and I did not get much done while high except having to go through WD again.
.  I am back on track and hitting day 40 so it can be done

[throwindatowl]

Im not familiar with opana. Like pain killers?

[throwindatowl]

Dont erase all the hard work youve done. Youll get what really needs to be done. Its the drug talking for you. Ive seen it in my own self. So strong and then you start thinking crazy, hey one pill I can do that, Just one. Ones not worth anything. Dont do much and totally erases what you just went through. Sorry I got some chores of my own that need tending to! lol. At least ya got a sense of humor and  that comes back in the final days. Be happy your almost done! Keep it up!