Desperate for help

[NoLongerHere]

Ive been on painkillers for about 5 yrs. It started when i had breats implants then i became more and more addicted without even rwalizing it. When i dont have them i cant function. Withdrawals are so bad. I want to get off the pills so bad but the withdrawals are to much for me to handle so i go back to 'popping pills' again just to avoid the withdrawals. I no longer take them for the 'high' i use to get from them i just cannot handle the horrible withdrawals. Please someone 'anyone' give me some kind of hope. I just want my life back to normal again. So PLEASE any help is much appreciated. Thank you in advance for taking the time to read this. God Bless You all.

[texaslady68]

Nolonger,

You may want to come up with a new name because you are HERE and there are plenty of people that care.  I am on day 5 of no pills.  I was taking 120 pills a WEEK (Norco).  I am not going to lie and tell you it will be easy.  Yesterday was the WORST day of my life.  I have lost about 20 lbs because a few weeks ago I started to taper down and just have lost my appetite.  I took my last pill Christmas day because I made a promise to God. I thought I might end up in the ER last night because lack of food and constant vomiting. I was barely able to stand due to almost fainting.  I am anemic so that doesnt help matters.  Only place I could make it was bathroom.  If you truely desire to do this, you have to dig into the deepest part of your soul and fight your way all the way back up.  It is hell, but i will tell you, although I have been so sick, I am clear headed and laughing, and feeling real emotions.  Though yesterday it was all tears....  I am much better today and feel like I have made it through the worst.  You can do this and you are in my prayers!!!!

[NoLongerHere]

Thank you to everyone who cared enough to take the time to post. Its good to know even strangers care. My family has always treated me as though i didnt exsist. So having no one to talk to or help has really been tough. Im still on the pills but i realize God is my only hope,, i know God helps those who helps themselves, he didnt make me start taking the pills so i shouldnt expect him to take the craving/urge away,, but with his 'help' i know i can get through this. Plus i have nee found friends on here, wich ive never had before. Special thanks to Bkitty for bumping me to the top. All of you are a true blessing. I know ill get through ths somehow somewway. Gof Bless You all. And thank you all again.

[littlebit010101]

You really can't see it right now but the only way to get ur life back is to quit...the wds don't last forever but after u make it through them that gives u pride in yourself that u haven't had in a while..and no its not easy but u got to want it....I just knew I didn't want my life on oxys it wasn't a life so I jumpedct and each day got better it takes time but hey u already invested a lot of time to get this way...u can do this and its so worth it to have ur life back...please let us know how ur doing we really do care..the very best wishes for u and good luck..

[Gaylebert]

Good for you - The best thing I did was go to my doctor and tell him I needed help t get thru this...He gave me Baclofen and sleeping pills.  They only help sp much, but do take the hardest edge off. Plus I have read that long term use of Baclofen is addisting, he said a week of them would be alright.  Apparently he interned with a detox specialist and this was his method.  Good luck to you....this is the hardest thing you will go thru, but you will get your life back soon.

[clayconst]

Hey, I can only give u my story, it may give u some hope. I have been taking up to 20&20 lorcets and somas for 5 yrs. This past Friday I put them down, I have 5 days, the wds have always been horrible and I would've done anything not to wd. I'm 42 I got remarried 2 months ago to an addict w/ same prob, we split on Tuesday,she wasn't ready I guess. Anyway I had some benzos and slept for 2 days, I'm using the Thomas receipts and its working. I'm anuling my marriage and am back w/x who doesn't use and spent all weekend with my 3 girls I havnt seen since march. They are so worth giving up anything for. I'm getting my energy back slowly but I'm not poping those things,u can do anything u set ur mind to. Good luck clay tx

[bama88]

I quit oxy 30 days ago. I truely get what your going thru. Its a circle of he//. The first two weeks were misery. I was in pain. I had a medical issue going on. Plus i was sick. But i stopped the oxy. I didnt get high anymore. I took more and more chasing a buzz that didnt exist anymore. Youve got to dig deep and want to stop. The withdrawls will go away and youll feel so much better

[Bkitty]

Bump~ Im bumbed you up to the top so someone can answer you this evening,,I will check on you tomm and see if anyone responded. hang in there,,there is amazing people that will provide support to you. Im headed to bed so Ill check tomm. Congrats on taking the first steps to get your life back. ~Bkitty