I just simply need a little support

[mybabytwins]

I am a first time Dad of twins, 51 years old, with both of my shoulders having full rotator cup tears. Approx. 5 months ago I went to a pain clinic with MRI's in hand and was given a script for hydrocodone 10/325 - 6 per day. Well as time went by I found myself taking more and more until I ran out last weekend. My last pill was Saturday. I have been getting a few from a neighbor to hold me over however this time he was out. So I am on day 3 now and last night with some help from Melatonin I got some sleep. My wife works as a full time nurse and I stay at home with the little angels. I am suppose to go to the clinic on Thursday but considering the hell I have been going through I don't want to take them anymore. I want to be the best Dad I can be. I do have a past (9 years ago) cocaine addiction that I was able to stop via a 60 day treatment program. I don't want to be these pills anymore, I want to be free and clean from the daily schedule of living my life around a pill. I was probably taking between 7-9 10's per day. My head feels cloudy, I feel anxious, my shoulder pain is tolerable. I am taking Imodium for the runs and that seems to be helping me, along with some magnesium and potassium for the RLS's. I guess my question is....how long knowing that I have been on these pills for 5 months now will it take for me to begin to feel like a normal human being. I will not go back to the clinic. I want to be the best Daddy I can be to my little babies. I love them sooooooo much, and they give me the strength to stop taking them.

[ActingBrandNew]

"I guess my question is....how long knowing that I have been on these pills for 5 months now will it take for me to begin to feel like a normal human being."

Usually people start feeling a lot better physically on day 5. It can vary but look to turn the corner in a couple of days since your on day 3. But since you have a history of cocaine addiction, Id suggest finding an aftercare program so you dont end up relapsing. The mental part is going to be the lingering aspect of withdrawal for some time. There's a lot of great aftercare out there....church, meetings, therapy, etc. Just get into something.

Stay plugged into this site and good luck