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I know you say you don't judge.....

I've lied. Again. It's a vicious cycle. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed. I went 21 days and broke down. Called the dr for the script and that was history. Took 120 hydros in 11 days. I honestly thought I had it nipped in the bud this last time. I honestly thought that was it. I feel like such a failure. Now, I get to look forward to my dreaded withdrawals that I KNOW are coming! I know I have to want it enough... At times I do. Then something happens and I feel I need the pills. I need for it to end once and for all! I said it last time too. But I'm truly wanting to stop this cycle!!! I just took the last one and now it's time for hell to begin. Please God don't lecture. I've kicked myself enough!!!!!
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I'm at 26 hrs and I feel pretty decent. Runny nose is driving me nuts. Slightly achy, not too bad. Depressed, but also had a bad day! The Xanax is helping with the anxiety. I'll tackle it next but one step at a time. That one I CANT go cold turkey. I've already had one seizure... Don't want another! So, for 26 hours out, does that sound pretty good??
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You did the hardest thing ever!!! You should be proud. Keep posting... I wanna hear about your progress!
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Great job! That is the hardest thing to do but also the most important thing to do! Let it out and surrender to God put it in his hands! Thats what I did and at 90 days was the best thing I ever did! Praying for you sweetie you can do this!
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I told her that I felt I had a problem controlling the amount of pain meds that I get. I told her I don't know how to take them like I should.. Told her how many I do take... Etc. I asked her to make sure he doesn't give me any other opiates Bc I have become addicted.
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What did you tell the nurse?
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My Prayers have already started Mamaamw.. Congrats on 22 hours !! warm hugs
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