I need a good support group

[swagger39]

Its hard goin this alone. Im soon going to be weening from klonapin from 2mg a day at twice a day for a lot of years. I have this beer drinking addiction going on at the same time , and that is usually after I get off work at midnight, its kind of like a wherewolf thing, I only indulge at night and hate myself the next day. Both these addictions escalated after I went off on my boss threw my badge and keys at him and walked out after 8 yrs from the best job I ever had and that was in 2004, My benzos increased over time and so did my drinking. I had previously lived in key west and in my mind I wanted to be there so I started listening to jimmy buffett , started drinking corona and escaped reality of the life in the midwest. Those days are gone now and I have gotten older but the drugs and the beer are still there.

[oompah54]

We have gotten so far away from the issue at hand.  Swagger, you have come here for information and support.  There are many great and informative people that can help you with your addiction.  I'm proud of you for putting down the beer and trying to get clean.  I hope you get what you need from this sight.  I can understand why you are so defensive at this point as you are going through a difficult time.  Just know that there are people here that only want you to succeed.  

[el_em_en_oh]

Swagger =  

1. To walk with a swaying motion; hence, to walk and act in a pompous, consequential manner.
2. To boast or brag noisily; to be ostentatiously proud or vainglorious; to bluster; to bully.

Here endeth the lesson...

[el_em_en_oh]

Proclivity = A natural propensity or inclination; predisposition

[vicki595]

Okay..it's only my observation and opinion which is based on your own remarks. You,admittedly,have a proclivity toward that sort of thing...

I think you're an angry man. I noticed the post you left for Becca,for everyone to see. What's with that?  You didn't need to do that. You could have sent her a private message but that's just an example of your anger issues.

I wish you well.

V.

[vicki595]

Swagger~  It's great that you haven't been drinking...    However,it still sounds like you're pretty angry.  What exactly are you expecting from the forum?   You've had some pretty thoughtful responses here...       Also,you're being smackdowned by angry females???  I don't see that...Are you looking for female attention here?  It sounds like it to me..  You got a response by text but it wasn't a female...hmmm...makes me wonder if you're here looking for a hook up.

Vicki

[10356]

Hey swagger I have read through your post and the responses.. through your anger and out of control behavior I can not help but to wonder how much your wife has dealt with.. when we have a insecurity it usually has a means.. not to be harsh with you but you would scare me away you sound absolutely controlling . through your anger and outburst I'm surprised she says anything. as addicts we give those that love us many reasons to not trust us and sometimes through our addiction do they feel diminished. when I was a junkie my partner was one and you remind me very much of him. I recognize you although your drug of choice is different.. appreciate maybe she has stuck with you and give her credit for putting up with your eradicate behavior.. lesa