My use started with back pain a couple yrs ago and has now turned into an addiction....never thought I would be this way :-( I have 3 little kids and don't want to keeping these drugs as a priority in my life, I take them now just to feel normal otherwise within hours Im sweating and aching and feel terrible. My husband really wants me to stop and so do I but the withdrawls are so bad I can't take care of the kids if I'm not taking them. I can't go to rehab! Any advice on how to end this nightmare?