I never cease to amaze myself!

[worried878]

Had a date...I brought it up yesterday...I knew he had tabs from an injury and that he doesnt take them...got thru the whole night...my shoulder was hurting..he offered the 5 /5mg tabs he had left to me...i took them...i did not swallow them but i have them..I felt it coming all day...i know i gotta get rid of them...WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF!

[confused456]

Persnick has hit the nail on the head with that!!!! I agree 110%!!!!!!
That was a wonderful response Persnick!!!

[persnick38]

I am so glad you took them back! Good for you.

You need to put some new files in that filing cabinet. Next time you go searching for a file, look under "S" for Sobriety, "C" for clean, "R" for recovery (that comes before the R file for Relapse so don't go past it), or "D" for Damn proud of myself for making it this far!

Shred the rest of those files - they're outdated.

Hang in there. This too shall pass....

[worried878]

I never thought about canceling the date...would have been the best thing to do...but i know he has them so it is there....i have known for 2 weeks and have said nothing...just a bad weekend...nice weekend and I feel great...do not understand why I am craving..It is like the seed gets planted in my brain and it doesnt really go away for a while...I dont consciously think about it all the time...but it is in my filing cabinet memory waiting to be opened...filed away under  "screw yourself up today...do it...do it...make yourself miserable and feel bad...take one!"

[confused456]

LOL...oops, sorry my response was short and showed up before yours did!! LMAO....sorry!

Congrats on making the best decision!! I knew you could do it!!

[worried878]

and I did put one in my mouth and couldnt swallow it....spit it out and flushed that one...i felt like it would kill me if i took it....i feel nauseated from this whole thing

[worried878]

I went by his house and gave them back to him...I told him I am allergic to them..I should have told him about my problem then he would not do this again...I really am broken out from a spray tan rxn...so I think he believed me,,I had left my jacket there last night and just handed them back to him....I wanted just one sooo bad...I do ok til i know they are there...like close...I mean I can always drive 20 minutes and go buy some...I have not even wanted to do that...I have to see my doc next month too and he always writes me a scrip for 30...gotta tell him NO MORE!  I already told my other doc that gave me a bunch
thanx