Vicodin Addict feeling hopeless

[droopyballs]

I really want to quit taking vicodin..problem is that when im on it I feel like I can conquer anything. Without the drugs im quiet, have anxiety,low self esteem. I know this sounds weird but I feel like im smoother and more confident with girls. they seem to enjoy me when im on them rather than not. I feel so akward w/out them in social situations.

I went to a NA meeting but it seemed so depressing and made me feel more depressed. I dont kno what to do.

Im 24 years old and feel like if I keep on this path of obsession w/ pills that my life will get worse but at the same time I feel like they make me such a productive/positive/adventureous person....

I need some advice as to how to keep the withdrawls to a minimal...

[Punkinhead75]

Good job on the clean time!!!  I saw you tried a meeting and didn't like it.  Keep trying intil you find one that works for you.  If you have a desire to not drink you can go to AA mtgs too.  Best of luck!!!!!!

[droopyballs]

Thank you for the positive feed back I really need the support seeing how i have no one else to talk to about this problem.

I told one close friend about it BUT he's not an addict and he really doesn't understand the nature of the beast....

[FassFeat]

Good job on 6 days. It will get better every single day going forward. Awesome that you laid it down. I wish I was your age when I figured out what was going on. Stay true to you and protect your clean time. You are at a pivotal time of your life, you are always going to be able to look back to this time to see when things changed in your life. Great job, stay with it.

[droopyballs]

thank you, im checkin it out right now..

[IBKleen]

Have you thought about attending meetings? Why not give it a try? there you will find people just like you who are either where you are right now or have been there and can share their experience, strength and hope with you. Here is the link for the meeting locator.

http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/

You've got nothing to lose.

[droopyballs]

hello,

thank you for the comments everybody. just wanted to check in. Basically, im on day 6 of sobriety and to be honest the physical withdraws were bad but im not experiencing them anymore. What i am feeling is the RLS like crazy and the insomnia. I read that it could be that I need iron seeing that im a vegetarian that would make sense...

Im ok during the day BUT gosh i cant get wink of sleep and its probably the hardest part for me and makes a reason to relapse. i really feel alone as well, as if im in a jail cell. Its not an option for me to tell my family even though I really want to get it off my chest. I feel like im my own worst enemy and my self esteem is an issue as well. I witnessed my father go through alcohol addiction,have an affair on my mother,and I lost my dream girl all in one year..Thats the same year i got the intro to those yellow norcos..really helped that year...from there its just been habitiual ritiual

[downinahole]

hey man you can beat this monster...i know its hard im on day five without any pills, i was on a 15-25 10 mg lortab habit a day for the past three years. i finally hit rock bottom last week.  love of my life left me! bankrupt! you name it im experiencing it....DO NOT LET THIS HAPPEN TO YOU!!!!!! im 36 yrs old and i had to move back in with my parents to help kick this demon....you can do it.....most of the physical withdrawels are gone, RLS still there but tolerable. DROOPY find a support system come clean start your life anew it aint worth it my friend.....I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO HAVE MY LIFE BACK THREE YEARS AGO!!!!!!

good luck and you will be in my prayers

[Ourdukes4ever]

Hi, if you wean off, if you can, have someone help you who you trust. I didn't get how many you are taking, but say like if you are taking 3 or 4 a day, then just start to go down, one half each time, staying on that amount for 3-4 days, then going down another half, for 3-4 days and then finally you can quit when you get down to 1/2 a day. You might even benefit more if you cut the half in half and do that for a couple of days. This weaning lessens the initial withdrawals. I'm on day 19 or something. I feel better. Good luck. I'm 57 years old and I had a four year addiction. Much harder when you are older!  Exercise and good diet helps with every imaginable thing, look up the health pages for great foods to eat. Also you might want to take a multi vitamin while you are getting off.

[perch101]

Hi - about the feeling confident and smooth on the pills - you may be surprised that once you are clean you won't feel that different- a lot of that 'feeling' is not a chemical reaction from the pills themselves but from a placebo affect - you can achieve a confident demenor without them.
Addiction is often called a 'cunning' disease - it's your addiction telling you the pills give you these feelings rather than the vicodin itself.

[laurel453]

Hi welcome here

could you start therapy to address those self steem problems ? droopy, how you were with the pills was inside you, you don't need them to be that way .... ...work with therapy to buid up this self steem, you are very young and addiction is always progressive

[droopyballs]

thank you, droopy is my mastiff name. thank you for responding as well. i appreciate it.
I understand what you are saying about the pills making me feel that way but its a pretty damn good feeling..know what i mean.
Thank you for the list..I need this badly

[vicki595]

Hi~  You THINK you're smooth and confident on the pills because that's what pills do to us...they make us feel that way!!!

Don't go back...you're young and you'll wreck your life. I promise.

There are things that will help a little:
Immodium
Hylands Restfull Legs
Nyquil
water juices
protein shakes
multi vitamin
Hot baths

Post with questions and BTW your screen name is cracking me up!!

[droopyballs]

Im getting them on the streets...Its sad how much money i've lost as well..

[dominosarah]

Are you getting them from the doctor or streets?

[droopyballs]

yes, this is all im taking. to be honest the only reason im not taking stronger pain pills is because I dont have access to them..

I figured it was time to do something about this when I found myself getting Restless legs at night if i didnt take any before bed.

[dominosarah]

Good time to get off them.  It will only get worse as our tolerance goes up.  Is that the only thing you are taking?

[droopyballs]

hello, thank you so much for the welcome and quick reply. well, I used to take 5 a day of 750 watsons for about 2 years  but recently I've found myself taking 5 for the day and 5 at night..

[dominosarah]

The only way to keep the wd's away is to stay off the vicodin. Pills give us a false sense of security.  You can be much smoother and confident without the pills.  There are supplements you can take that will ease the wd's.  Check out the health pages on the right hand side of the page.  They have the amino acid's listed.  Make sure you drink plenty of liquids and get up and move as much as you can.

How much are you taking a day?  glad you found this place.  We are here to support you     sara