I'm Proud of Myself for a Change

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Today I had to go pick up some scrips for myself and the hubby.  As I have mentioned to several Joe is off he oxycodone now and is working on tapering off the Duragesic.  What killed me is, well I always add the pills left in the old bottle into the new one.  Today I picked up my high BP meds....well instead of giving me Atenolol I ended up with 90 30 mg oxycodone (huh what?).  They definitely zigged when they should have zagged.

I called the pharmacy right away and told them about the mistake.  Since Mike (my fav pharmacist) knows I'm clean now he even drove to my house and picked up the oxy and brought the correct meds to me.  Three months ago I would have probably still have given them back because I wouldn't want someone to lose their job because of inventory....but I would realllllll have had to fight sending them back.  Today I just hollered at Joe, told him to please look and make sure I wasn't making a mistake.  As soon as he told me it was what I thought it was I called the pharmacy right away.

I don't have too many instances in my life where I've been proud of myself, I don't take compliments well, etc etc.  This time though I gotta say I'm proud of myself because this is a milestone to me.

I give all the credit to my MH Family though :-)

[Amandag78]

Hey girl, a big well done to you, we are all delighted you found this forum !!!
Great to see you faced temptation and
won : )

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Thanks hun....I said I did the right thing...I didn't say that my little addict voice was going a mile a minute (ahhh their mistake) (ooooh something to celebrate Joe's diagnosis today) (just a few won't hurt me).  I thought all those things and much more...however, these days a shortage of 90
Class I and Class II narcotics is one way to get fired and I can't do that to someone else)  Hugz

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl a big Kudos to you for doing the right thing even as far along in my recovery I would have had a hard time with the pharmacy delivering me the oxy I have told my doctors not to prescribe it to me no mater how much pain im in so far it is working............Gnarly

[Ejm7263]

So proud of you. Real recovery. Life as it is supposed to be lived.
Inspiration today.

[edwardcejka]

Well done you come back and recovery for your health. Congregates !!!!

[saspan]

i first started taking opiates after a bad crash and continued because of kidney stones. my doctor told me don,t worry i,llkeep you in plenty of meds.they don,t discuss addiction or least   none of my doctors have.i,ve always taken things to extremes in life and have many addictions. i,ve always taken them addictions to the limit ,however this one has to be dealt with again. sooner rather than later i need to get this one in check.

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

I'm extremely proud of you.  It really did take a lot of courage to come back and "own up".  Lots of people would not have done that!!

Kudo's to you my new friend!

[saspan]

sorry to hear about your husband i hope he has many years ,you never know remember we don,t have an expiration date in stone. i,vr had a ruff probally 20 yrs off and on. i,ve done the best i can to be normal. i know i need aftercare to succeed and i,m gonna try to get it . i switched from alcohol to pills and it was an easy transition easier to hide from family and friends. its a lifelong struggle that i know is gonna take a lot of work. anyway i,m prepared to give it another go .

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Life is funny sometimes...if I had the kind of money that you do would I have been able to do the same....I don't know.  I have super huge encouragement though to stay sober...my husband is extremely ill...I might have another year with him...maybe another five.  I had decided that as his main caretaker that I couldn't care for him properly if I didn't take care of myself.

No matter what .... we all have to make changes.  I'll tell you a real story.  In Denver around 1993 I had a sinus infection...the pharmacy accidentally gave me nothing but opiates...yep, even in the antibiotic bottle...and that time I kept them....I figured well I have antibiotics already.  I ended up feeling so guilty about it that a couple of years later I called that pharmacist up and told him what happened.  Thank God he forgave me...but it was a wake up call in a sense for me because I believe in honesty above all else.  I broke my own vow....after that I never lied again when it came to the drugs.  Now had I only been smart enough to recognize that as a sign of addiction I would have gotten off he darned things a lot sooner!

My point is Saspan, we all have done things we are embarrassed over....we just can't sit around and knock ourselves down.  You are a good person with a disease....Promise me you will try to get up in the morning and start fresh.  A brand new day...keep the information that will help you grow and succeed and throw the rest out!!!
Hugz

[saspan]

you should be proud if you did that. i know i would not have done the same. thats bad to say but its the truth. anyway i,m workin on that . i relapsed so many times its not funny.  been to rehab 5 times ,spent over 50k easy and still can,t get it. but i,m trying thaTSall i can ask out of myself right now.