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I'm done!!!

Hello. I'm 34 years old and I've been addicted to lortabs for 7 years now. I decided I had to quit and not just talk the talk but walk the walk. I lost my mom in 2009 to cancer. It hurts realizing I really didn't devote my every second to her because when I didn't hav my meds she didn't hav me. It's so sad I know. I have 2 amazing boys and a wonderful husband. Everything to to happy about. But my addiction was stronger than me. Today I am 4 days clean. I'm still hurting some and hav diarriah and nausea but for the first time I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just yday broke down and told my husband the truth because he thought i was only taking what the bottle said. But I was up to 30mg every 4 hours. CRAZY. I know. But listen if I can do YOU can do it. I need all the support I can get because I still have a long way to go. But with faith I can and will defeat the beast. Thx and love.
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hi, i am very sorry you lost your mum, it is hard ,i know and im sure you miss her very much,   you did a very good thing telling your husband the truth! it will help you all the more in recovery, have you tried immodium for the diarriah and stomache cramps, also drink plenty of fluids, i think its a good idea to formulate a plan to keep off them, perhaps NA, or therapy, i really wish you well, im sure you will get more replies giving you good advice and encouragement, keep posting, and take care,  sudie
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Thx for ur post. I really appreciate it. I do miss my mom but now I know I can do better by getting on those evil things and know she's smiling while watching over me.
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On day 5 clean. Still hav muscle aches. Mainly my back. The runs mildly and an upset tummy. But other than that doin ok. Just starting to get aggravated and a little discourages because I was always told by day 4 I'd b feeling better. Will it be over soon. Please help.
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Length and severity of wd is dependant on many factors but I have to think by day 5, the worst of the physical stuff should be over.

That doesn't mean you will feel better tomorrow but at this point what are your options???  Get some pills and hit the button and start over so you can do this again??  It only ever gets harder, now IS the time.

Don't be discouraged, you have made incredible progress to get to day 5 and you have made a positive life-changing decision to stop the madness.  Don't undo it.

Have you thought about telling your doctor or going to a counselor or NA???

You CAN do this.....you ARE doing this!!!!
Hang in there,,,,you will feel better soon.

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Wow- you and have a lot of similarities. I'm 40, almost 41 in April- 3kids (2 boys and a girl) also have a stepson. I lost my mom to cancer in 03 at the age of 32. It was absolutely devastating and I think one of the major factors in my addicition. I also lost my first son in 99 7 hrs after he was born- another horrific trauma I endured. I've been addicited to opiates (vics,norco and percs) for 6 years now and am on day 6 of being clean. I am married to a wonderful guy who practices law. He honestly had no idea that I was abusing my meds. I broke down and told him everything prior to going cold turkey and it one of the best decsions I ever made.

Now that I'm out of the deep dark place of wd's I am thinking about aftercare. I am going to attend my first meeting this week and am going to call around and find myself a good counselor tomorrow. I wish you all the best in your sobriety. I know a beautiful, sober life is waiting for me and for you and that we ALL deserve it. PM if you want to chat!

Peace and Love

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