to those in early recovery

[gizzy32]

i posted this in late january and since there are so many new people here now and many just getting clean i thought i would repost this to show you that it does get better. i hate to see someone give up.

i just wanted to tell those of you that have been only clean for a few days, or a few weeks that are struggling right now to not give up. getting clean is a struggle and it can be so painful with all the emotions that follow.  our brains are re-wiring themselves and that can cause so many things to happen, depression, anger, guilt, sadness, and then a few minutes later it changes, feeling happy excited, hopeful, peace.  sometimes it feels like it is just to much to take, but i am here to tell you to keep fighting, because there is a light at the end of the tunnel

i have been clean now 74 days, and to be honest, it took the first 2 months for me to recover. i have been through so much, but this time i stayed clean and let me tell you something, I AM FINALLY HAPPY AGAIN.  there is no greater feeling overcoming what we are faced with, and doing so makes us better people, i appreciate life more now than i ever have.

so when your having a bad day and you want to give up, get your *** on this forum and vent if you need to, don't be afraid to ask for help, but most of all, be honest with yourself.  you are worth fighting for, and it is only you that can change your future now. choose life, not drugs.  the pain you are feeling now, will only be a memory, and happiness will follow.  no matter how bad you feel sometimes don't lose sight of your goal, because it is so worth it. this may sound strange, but i get higher now clean, then i did on drugs.  LIFE IS A GIFT

[elefrog42]

this post made my day.....I stopped tramadol (again....) this weekend, and I had a crappy morning to begin with and all I could think about was finding where my husband hid the pills.  Until I read this.  Now I've decided just to accept today, and sit in my house (we're snowed in!  again!  why???? It's march already :(  ) and eat cookies and watch good ol' law  and order.  You guys rock.

[duckandcover]

I can't tell you enough how well timed this post is for me.  I'm approaching 2 months on the 14th.  I really thought that all this would be behind me by now and that my current struggles with anxiety/depreession were something out of the ordinary.  This place has taught me that it's not and your post has reinforced the fact that the struggle is worth it.

Thanks!

[confused456]

Giz:
Its good to see your post. Thanks for reposting it. Gives us all hope.

[mommy52713]

Thank you so much for you'r post it  gives  me hope that i too can do this i know it will not be easy but it can be done . thank you for it's people like you that makes me sure i too will make it ....... holly

[Jacqui805]

I'm happy to see this post.  I posted a similar one a few weeks back, and the point could not be driven home enough.  

I think that even when you're aware of some of the issues these meds. cause you, there are some that you won't even know you had, until you're off, free and clear.

While almost at two months right now, I still have residual med. issues, they are for the most part gone...and the rest will follow in the coming months.  The "life buzz" I have is almost like a feeling of rebirth.  While I thought life was good before, I so much more appreciate it now, and for the most part, everything's better.  

For those of us that take a while longer for recovery, it's nice to know we're not alone.  It is as different an experience as the people we are, and the situations regarding our use of the meds. are in the first place.

Great post Gizz.

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Amen Brother...there is no better buzz than knowing you are not a prisioner to drugs anymore.

It took me 6 months to appreciate life without drugs because like you said,  your brain is re-wiring itself and that is not a pleasant time. But it sure is worth the work and struggles to get to this place of peace.

Chi Chi