Checking in to my peeps

[bobby139]

Hi all, hubby out working in yard so thought I'd take advantage of it and let you all know that I am ok....The kids and I are back home, my little girl went to b-day party and hubby somehow found out and went and got her so I pretty much had to come home on his conditions but things are ok except I will be honest yesterday would of been 2 weeks clean, but he'd bought 100 oxy's while I was gone and he wanted to me to start taking them agian not wanting to fight I did but now instead of him bringing me one every 3 hrs he has told me just to take them and he isn't paying much attention so have been TRYING to just flush them one at a time...I know I sound like a stupid ***.....he say's he will never hit me agian but is being very verbal he has taken off work itleast till Mon so i can only get on here and there.
I wanted to thank all of you that has been so supportive and you know who you are (my angels!) I will play his games for awhile, so don't worry about me I will be fine!!!!! and I will get clean agian, i promise you and myself that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love to all,
bobby

[worried878]

I am so glad u r ok....i dont what to tell u...and i know u gotta do what u gotta do having kids and all...but next time...make a foolproff plan when you escape..LOL   not funny but u know what i mean...when the time is right...u will know...and u will go...do not let him feed your pills...may be a form of control, not sure on that one...pocket them in the side of your mouth if you have to an spit them out....and your son could end up jumping on him one day to protect you...that happened in my family...alot of guilt when it comes down to that...do what u gotta do but be planning

[bobby139]

That has been one of my biggest fears is that one of my son's coming off the wall..They of course have heard alot of verbal abuse and stand up for me all the time. My one son tells me that i am going with him when he moves out. ya I'd really do that to him!
I promise I will do something about it, in time.
hugs bobby

[sadinmichigan]

I understand...but just once..the damage is done already...My son almost went to jail for me...I can't have that either..I am here for you and will have you on my mind...(((HUGS BACK)))

[bobby139]

my sweet friend thank you... I will take care of myself and babies I promise. Thanks for being my friend <3  even thou I've been a pain in the *** a few times lol.
bobby

[bobby139]

I know its not right and the last few day's been in nothin but self pitty, I know he is a *** hole, I'm not fooling myself Ive been married to him for almost 25 yrs and i know its not good on the kids my boy's are at the age they will be moving out soon and beliave it or not my baby girl has never or my boy's seen their father hit their mother until the other nite. I know I have to do something about it but right now there is sooo many reasons why I can't but the main one is my Dad he is dieing and i can't or wont let him know that there is a problem!! I have put up with my husband this long I can do it till my Dad is gone, then the son of a ***** had better run! It seems like my whole life I have picked the ones that do that, guess i need a diffrent forum to figure out that one lol.  thanks Sad I am listening to ya. and hear ya...  <3
hugs,bobby

[cathy5841]

bobby,  glad to hear you are okay now.  please, please take of yourself anf stay safe.  i am here if you need me.  
much love and many  prayers
cathy

[sadinmichigan]

Hi hun..listen..hitting a woman even a few times is a character flaw..They will not change..I thought just because it only happened a few times..not a big deal.! Well i have figured out that there is something wrong with me for even making excuses..It has been 1/1/2 yrs that his has happened. the last time i almost got the life strangled out of me..until i seen stars. I made every excuse for everything.No more..Pills and whatever else will make us numb.while it is good to laugh..it is not funny..I can and have laughed too...thanks to some great people here..like confused..i'm thinking you might want to be careful jumping over that fence...in case you ate beans...LOL sorry..i can laugh too..But seriously..your kids are going to suffer..just like mine..It is never OK NEVER!!!!! I will post a pic of my face if it will help..

[confused456]

Laughter is the best medicine and I would go crazy if it wasn't for laughter too!!

[bobby139]

Nothin or no one can stop me from lauphing, if i couldn't lauph I think I would go crazy.. The more I'm hurting it seems like the more I joke.. Man I should be a freaking comedian right now lol...

[confused456]

OMG.....LMAO....glad to see at least you can laugh!!!

Best medicine ever!!

[bobby139]

Ya can u just see me jumping fence with 3 kids in tow,..I think he just might run on that one..thats worse then any fart  lmao

[confused456]

I am thinking so too!!! LMAO

[bobby139]

I think it just might be a great one lmao

[confused456]

LOL....not a bad idea!!! HUGS

[bobby139]

you have been so sweet thur this,, thank you. You really find out thur something like this who is really there for ya and who is kinda full of hot air lol.
Maybe i should jump the fence when hubby isn't looking....what ya think??
hugs.bobby

[confused456]

I have you in my thoughts and prayers Bobby and you know it! I hope you and the kids stay safe! Much love to you and bug hugs. Hang in there and let me know if you need anything!!

[bobby139]

Thank You sooo much...Iam sorry that you had to go thur that too...I know I always say its because of the drinking but his drinking is getting worse and worse, he thinks he has done so good if he only drinks a 12 pack one nite he is so proud of himself! I know he wants me on the pills because i keep my mouth sut then and he dosn't have to take me anywhere I'm the perfect robot mom and wife on the pills....This will pass in time and I will get straight agian....I just need to really think what to do... It has been many many years sense he has beaten me like he did the other nite..So hopefully his promise not to do it agian he will keep!
Love ya girl thanks
bobby

[sadinmichigan]

Right now..I am sick from reading this..because it is something so close to me..I haven't told anyone except one..I have a black eye and stitches in my lip...why? because i got in my husbands face who has a girlfriend..He was drunk and...I keep protecting him..for my kids..He has constantly put pills in front of my face!!!! because...misery loves company...Misery no more for me..I tried to make light of it..He has only done that a few times...He was drunk..I say...there is no excuse..I am so sorry honey..I don't tell people these kinds of things because sometimes...it seems people just want attention. which is still a cry...I won't remain silent anymore!!!! I don't have to prove anything here.!!! It won't change..he is what he is...

[sunshinesometimes]

I don't know you... but it sounds like you're having a time right now.... Stay strong... Do what's right for you and your family... I'll keep you in my prayers...