Issues with weird sleep

[LeaAnn807]

Hey everybody.  I am having some trouble, and I wanted to know if anyone else does or did this?  

I am falling asleep around 11:00 pm after I take clonidine, but I don't take any OTC or prescription sleep meds.  Just the BP pill and some Cal/Mag supplement.  I have been waking up at like 3:20 every morning, wide awake.  Then I fall back to sleep around 5 and sleep till maybe 7.  The strange thing is that it's like my body is DONE sleeping a little after 3. Like I could get up and drive across country and not be the least bit sleepy!  I had to take some tylenol to get back to sleep this morning.  It's just crazy.  After 4 or so hours, could my body be feeling like that's all I need?  Maybe it is just early in all of this to be sleeping all night?  OR....is the clonidine putting me to sleep and then I am waking up, because my sleep cycle is not back to normal and the clonidine wears off??  

I just wonder if the clonidine is just doing more harm than good??  I want to take it so that I can at least fall asleep. I don't feel like I would even be able to do that without it.  Plus, my doc gave me plenty and told me to take it at night. BUT...if it's causing me to wake when it wears off, then I think I should taper off it.  I have another BP med that the same doctor gives me that he says I can change back to when the WD was over.  I wouldn't be doing anything without talking to the doctor, but I DO need SOME sleep, even if it is just 4 hours!!!

What do you guys think?  Anybody do that weird waking up thing, even if not taking meds?

[vicki595]

I cannot define normal...      But,here's a truth I've often had to remind myself :  I am not perfect,I am not super-human. Somedays I don't feel as perky as other days and that's how it is with life.  I don't believe we were meant to feel great every single day. Our own biological rhythms cannot support it..  It's peaks and valleys with everyone;good mood,bad mood.  And,I also think,those of us who have been addicted expect sooo much because we KNOW what feeling good all the time is. And THAT is NOT normal.

You'll get there and I'll get there. I'm not there yet but getting very close to a comfort level.   And,yes,15 yrs is a long time. For people like you and me, with a long history(mine is longer),we just really don't have a point of reference as to how we're supposed to feel at this time/age.   And so it goes...

Yes, I know where there's a PA meeting :  In a convent. Are you ready for that???  LOL

Vicki  xo

[LeaAnn807]

I KNOW....I KNOW......I KNOW!  : )

I have a patience issue.  Do you two think there is a PA meeting I could go to anywhere?  

All jokes aside.....I know the surgery is messing me up.  Ok, that said, anytime I have had WDs, I have had this "time" of sluggishness after I go through the acute, restless, nervous junk.  It's like I go from not being able to sit still to not being able to get up!  I guess I'm just looking for normal, but I forgot over the last 15 years or so what normal is!  Like.....can someone please define normal???  I don't know what it feels like exactly.  Normal for me before drugs IS NOT going to be normal for me now, 15 years later.  I do know that much!  

I'll get there eventually.  Maybe I need to start a Patience Anonymous!  I might really get on the map for that one!!!! : )  I know a few non-drug-addicts who might could use that!!!

[avisg]

yes after sugery because of the trama it can mess with your sleep it happened to me when I had my hyterectomy

[vicki595]

Also...Do I need to remind you that you just had surgery???    So,you're a little drowsy during the early afternoon??????     Hmmmm..Could it be you're forgetting that recovery time(for the surgery) is six weeks?????     Now,be a good girl and give yoursekf a break and stop expecting so much all at one time because that is not going to happen and you know it as sure as I have green eyes.  Whew!

Love~Vicki

[LeaAnn807]

Gosh, I feel like I have done everything short of taking a sleeping pill!!!  I took a long bath at almost 10 last night, trying to relax.  It's not really that I am not relaxed anyway.....it's just that I wake up at 3 and wouldn't go to sleep at all if I weren't taking clonidine! (good thing it's safe!)  I'm relaxed.....I'm just awake!  Strange, I know!  But I also know that it hasn't been that long since I stopped pills, so I am just going to try to have some patience.........UGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

This is the thing that usually sends me searching for the pills again!  I just can't wait to feel better and sleep normally!  Gets me every time!

[catlover8]

I had horrible problems even with ambien. I am now getting to a place where sleep is coming back and becoming fun again. I talked to my doctor and we are on a plan. He is helping me with the depression and anxiety and made me use in the first place. Just the relief of all the anxiety and depression has helped me sleep. It is like I trust I will get a full night's sleep now. Sleep was so hard in the beginning. But, it gets better. You regain the way you used to sleep