You should be proud of yourself. You have made a decision to get and stay clean. You have a goal and a really good reason to do this.(Kids & self) I like your attitude. You will make it.
Yeah I know what you mean..the first three days seem terrible, But I'm sure you know everyday is better and better! I'm close to a week and the WD's are still there emotionally. Crankiness sets in when I'm around too many people, so I have to stick it out on my own. Just try and get as much sleep as possible. Don't push yourself too much. But hang in there and stay strong!
Checking in at 24 hours, feel like ****. no sleep despite six ambian throughout the night. Reading your posts help. I have gone through wd way too many times I need t figure out the root of this addiction and address it. I have to be a soccer mom by tomorrow night, dad has kids until then. So I am going to have such a frikin positive attitude in like eight hours.
I will check back in
On day 10, just got back from the gym. Was able to run 5.5 miles on the old treadmill. I feel like I'm just about back to my normal self. Good luck to all.
Just back back from a bike ride. Feeling pretty good. Its been 122 days since my last perc. Working with a pain management doctor and trying to find nonnarcotic ways to deal with chronic pain. So far . . . A POSITIVE ATTITUDE...is the best medicine. Peace and strength to all. . . Deb
It is so nice to see you on here!! It sounds like life is treating you good. Glad to see you are still on the "honey do" list!!!! sara
Thater - thanks for your encouragement - I do believe that you are frikkin' wonderful.
Everyone else - too many names to mention - you are all absolutely the best thing that has ever happened to me even though I will always equate you all in my mind with the most horrible time of my life i will never hold that against you. You guys can certainly dole out the kicks in the butt when appropriate but you are all extremely uncanny in knowing when encouraging words are needed. I have need all those words and all you fine people more than i have ever needed anything in my life and i cannot be more grateful for coming across this forum ( and I found it by accident during a time of exctreme desperation). I could not be here at my three week mark has i not found you all. I cry now as i write this but they are tears of joy rather then the tears i was crying on day 1 thinking i would rather "not wake up" in the morning then to spend my life without mothers little helpers. I cant believe that i can think again, feel again, cry again and be grateful again., It's hard to believe that i let that part of myself go for so long for a stinking little pill. I have been on this rollercoaster with you all and i have hated it, but i have survived it, and in doing so i feel like i have FOUND myself again. I dont mean to babble but i really am astounded ( and proud ) of myself. Never thought i would see this day. And I really DID think you were all nuts telling me I would get better and be happy without my little pill bottle. All my gratitud to you all. Tearing up that script today was my REAL turning point. I am not afraid so much anymore and I am amazed!!!!