It's time...

[Tanner1982]

I'm almost 31 years old. I started with a few occasional vic's then moved up to Oxycontin, then about 5-6 years in the Methadone clinic, a couple brief moths with H, then several years of Suboxone- I found out really quick that getting off of Subs is next to impossible. I don't know if it was the correct choice but I switched to Oxycodone IR's for about the past month but we all know how that goes. (I am currently on about 100-120mg's per day). Now I am to the point where I just want my life back and feel like I will do almost anything (including W/D's) to get it back.
I am absolutely scared ********. I have a wife and kids and run my own business and I understand that it's not going to happen overnight and it will most likely be the most difficult thing I have ever done.
The reason I am posting this is because I need help. I need the support of all of you have done it and others like me who are getting ready to take the plunge. I've never posted anything on this site before but when I noticed a woman who made it through her "Hell week" with the help of all the awesome people out there I decided I would ask for your help. I am desperate to get clean. I want to experience reality and enjoy my kids, and even more they deserve to have a dad who is clean.
I've done a lot of research and I know about everything from Ammodium to Kratom and I am almost ready. I have 4 15mg left and I told all of my "friends" that I am getting clean. I changed my number and have no more plugs for anything. I do have a handful of vic's and was planning on using them to try to sleep a little. (I know I shouldn't cheat but I really think it's the only way I can do it).
I know this was really long. You support and comments would be greatly appreciated!
THANK YOU! -Tanner

[VICourageous]

You sound pretty darn smart. You did your reseach. I was on everything you were but the H i did the benzo instead. Since you are wondering about the oxy I am going to leave it to the others I did them 12yrs ago before the methedone. However hang in they will come rolling in and out. YOU will get GREAT SUPPORT HERE. Keep checking post because we are from all over and have differnt time zones. I will say that I have seen blessing here since sept when I came clean.......
SO KEEP CHECKING POST>>>
vickie--idaho