Keep fighting for it

[PoochieRachetToe]

I remember distinctly the sick feeling setting in to my body and all I had done was decide enough was enough. No more pain killers. I prepared for the worst and was still not armed for what I was about to endure. I commited to myself and my wife, there was no turning back now! It wasn't made easy. I worked and cared for our 14 month old son while she was away on a business trip. I agonized and cursed myself when the agony of  sleep deprivation and horrid thoughts began. I prayed to no one. I just grabbed the bull and went for the ride.
My decision was 160 days ago. I still recall the intensity of the withdrawls. I'm sure the recollections are what keep me sober. I only take over OTC's for my migraines and manage the best I can when they aren't enough. When I finally realized that I was causing more mental harm wishing I could turn back the clock, I stopped living in the past. I then truely began to heal from the inside.
All of my relationships, be it my wife, child, family or work, have become better than before. I am commited to staying away from opiates/narcotics and living a healthy lifestyle. My wife says my body very much resembles Kellan Lutzs'. I'll take that! In the best shape of my life and will be 34 very soon.
I wish you all success in casting these demons from your life. You will truely appreciate all that life has to offer, when you learn enough is enough.

[6stringrock]

I start my journey back into sobriety today. Thank you for your post. In the beginning you really look for any kind of hope that you can hang onto.

[vicki595]

You're doing so well Poochie~   I'm happy for YOU!!  xo

[LMB01]

Thank you so much for sharing, your words have been encouraging!

[anonymous9264]

"Sometimes the pain is easier than the cure. Especially when its temporary".

Wow.  yeah.

[Jebs317]

I needed to read a post like this!  Congratulations on 160 days!!!  That is absolutely awesome!  Sometimes thinking back is exactly what we need..... I am so glad you posted this.  
Mending relationships is what I need to stop running from....and reading how wonderful yours are now gives me hope.
Congratulations and here's to the next 160!!


Kristen

[dominosarah]

Always gotta keep your guard up!!

[PoochieRachetToe]

I was reminded how I got into that vicious cycle just 2 days ago. Horrible migraine. Hating life! Then I recalled how much worse life was............ I felt better, but not much when I heard the Neuro's words in my head. "Sometimes the pain is easier than the cure. Especially when its temporary".
Thanks guys! I hope you feel as great as I.

[dominosarah]

Congrats Pooch!!  Nice post.  Keep it going~~~~sara

[LeaAnn807]

Congrats Pooch!  Good to see ya.....well, good to see ya typing????!!!!! : )

I'm so happy you are doing well.  Keep it up!