Lets keep the open floor

[OxyDout]

I think the open question idea is a good one, but if someone else thinks different then I will stop, but anyway I did something last night that I think can definitely help anyone keep their mind off of drugs.  My girlfriend bought me rollerblades last night and we went out rollerblading around 9:30pm last night.  It was incredible, it was one of those things that I forgot was so much fun.  We had the summer night, cool air, and we were flying up and down the streets...... And the thing that was even better was that I was sharing it with the girl I love. SHE bought something that FINALLY made me realize I WANT TO BE SOBER!!! It was the most incredible feeling, I WAS FREE!!!! Well, that is my two cents.  I haven't been doing so well with the tapering, I found the "stash" oh boy, I have found out that the only way i can do this is to go through the hell, but don't get me wrong, I didn't eat like 15 vic's in a day, I just haven't been sticking to the taper as wel as I should be.  

Well, I hope all is well, and please post often today.  

GROOVY WHERE ARE YOU!!!! I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU, OH, I BOUGHT MY ROLLERBLADES AT THE LIBERTY TREE MALL!!

[OxyDout]

I don't know about the insurance, but I'm inclined to think that, that would be illegal to decline you because of oxycontin. AS far as the chest pains, did it happen when you took the meds, if it did, it might be because any opiate strains the respitory system. If someone was to OD on oxy it is because of respitory failure, so be careful, although your not taking a high dose so don't worry too much, I would go for a full physical so you could find your answer and put your mind at ease. But hey, your in the right place, lets do it together, I have hit rock bottom and I'm still floating there, but I'm in high hopes that I'm on the rise, and I absolutely cannot, willnot take no for an answer. You can DO THIS, ITS DOABLE!!!

excuse my language, but i'm so ******* sick of this ****.  I'm portrayed by friends, family, and co-workers as such a nice guy, hard working, good ethics etc..... but its all bullshit, I know that deep down below the drug addict that all the above is true, but i'm losing it, i really am, i can't handle it anymore. I'm sorry for having to post this stuff, but i have all this hate anger and aggression building up and i can't put a cap on it, i feel like i'm losing it, i'm worthless, i don't even deserve anything in life, i really don't, why have i done this to myself. there isn't a way out, atleast i don't see it, please help me guys.

[OxyDout]

the second half of that post was to everyone not to "acowgirl"

[hellbent]

I was on Oc's for 4 years, and I found that any number of physical ailments can be attribted to them. I had my left leg falling asleep (thought I had Multiple Sclerosis), skin problems, a little benign growth on my head, and some others. Everything has gone away after quitting.

Anyone who takes narcotics is familiar with constipation, and weight gain. What is often unknown is how this symptom can ravage your system. Your digestive system slows to a crawl, and minerals and vitamins are not processed. The list of disease and other physical problems that can result are myriad.

Another symptom of opiate usage is respiratory and central nervous system depression. So, shortness of breath is definitely a possiblilty, though I don't remember having it.

Try to drink lots of prune and grape juice, and do heavy impact excercise whenever you can. The first couple years, I played ultimate frisbee and basketball, and was far more "regular". Sports are, for me, much better than running a treadmill, as it gets the competitive juices flowing and you forget that you are forcing yourself to excercise. Problem is, as time goes by, and you do more opiate, you almost invariably become less active.

I've only been clean for 46 days, but I have lost 35 pounds, and people are telling me I look 5 years younger. Give thought to quitting if you don't absolutely need OC's for pain.

[OxyDout]

what do you attribute the weight gain to?? you think oc's will make you gain weight???? I have never heard of that.  I'm curious as to what the thinking behind that is.

[mrmichael67]

Opiates depress the respiratory system in high dosages.  I would say, definitely, that you are quite used to the drug by now and you don't experience any respiratory depression.  As far as straining the respiratory system, they do not.  The chest pain is most likely a coincidence.  As far as your insurance, are you prescribed these meds?  If you are, insurance can't deny you.  They are a legal medication.  And, they don't test to see what level of the drug is in your system, just whether it is there or not.  Did you tell them you are taking it when you were tested?  Of course, you would have to show them the script, or the bottle with your name on it.

[acowgirl]

gwh-I know I don't take much compared...but addiction is addiction and we all feel that way about ourselves at some time or another. I am a mom, a wife, and I take care of of elder relatives...I feel like there is no one to take care of me.  My husband tries to be supportive but his life is so much different than mine he really can't relate.  I have smoked pot, popped pills at will, and now I take these meds because I have had 2 unsuccesfull neck surgeries where they fused titanium to my spine.  I love exercise!!!but can't walk on my expensive!!tredmill cause of the pain that follows 3-4 days later...I want another child but am so afraid that I can't take care of one but my clocks ticking and believe me that clock is real.  I want to be normal, to feel normal to live without the aches and pains that I have daily, I want to be the one success story that makes the front page.  READ THE REMARKABLE JOURNEY OF A YOUNG WOMANS QUEST FOR A PAIN FREE DRUG FREE LIFE:  or DOCTOR COMES TO THE RESCUE WITH NEW AND AFFECTIVE TREATMENT WITHOUT PILLS. I don't know what my tomorrow holds for me.  I have dreams of being healed.  I wonder if the healing is within my own power and want to try.  I left the house for my sons brthday prty and forgot my meds and freaked out. I made it through but for the first 10 min. I was going to drive 30 miles back to get them. I don't know what to say to make you feel better but if your family thinks your great than you are. It is DOABLE you will do it. I don't know your situation, but I'm glad you replied to my post. Thank You.  Hellbent, just knowing that you feel better once the **** is out of your system makes it doable.  At first this medication was God sent.  I guess for the first year I felt great.  The first time I was prescribed the patch for pain and in 15 mins I was pain free, it was too strong for me so the dr. put me on oxy.  This medicine works but at times I feel so cloudy. and the chest pains are something I have been dealing with for the last 6mths off and on.  My husband is convinced it's the med. so I have to see because if it is I would trade this pain for the other.