I was tired of lying or coming up with means or ways to lie, especially to doctors and family.
Tired of being someone that I wasn't such as a thief.
Lived like a hermit in total isolation
Always felt sorry for myself
Living in denial
Making up pain stories
Tired of being sick and chasing it to not be sick
Burned bridges, lost a 29 years marriage, lost so much money and nothing at all to show for it.. 61 days and alive for once. mike in nc
Yeah Maria I didn't even bring up the money And the counting and chasing. Wow. And everything else you said is dead on as well. All of it.
for me it was just getting sick of the chase to find the pills....sick of waking up in the A.M. having to pop a handful of pills to feel normal..no high...sick of counting...sick of waiting for calls...sick of wasting cash for nothing....i wanted more than anything to feel normal with no opiate involved...so i just did it...very hard but so worth the freedom i now have...i can wake up every morning and just drink coffee....no pills to start the day...that is the best reason i have for quitting...maria
Exactally how I feel. I really hate the dark side of the addiction
Hey...i would have to agree with #2, #4 and #5. Also I felt so alienated from God. Every day these areas of my life start to get a wee bit better. I sat in the sun today for about 5 mins and it felt soo good. Enjoy your sobriety and thanks for the great post.
Well said..Again you sound just like me Good Luck