does it get better

[opi]

day 8 and i feel  worse than before...wtf?....is it my mental state that's doin it?...i think i have broken head...lol..i'm seeing my fam doc tomorow and am going to tell him my story.(freak him out a bit)...dono how it will help but he might have some advice...that's all folks....peace

[GoingToMakeIt]

Have you read up on PAWS?
Look in my friends for Greatgreebo. Read her journals on it. It's a big help to know what can lay ahead.
Your mindset is very good. Get clean and stay clean no matter what. You will make it with that attitude. I did the same. I knew that taking them was/is not an option! For me week 2 & 3 were much better.But MizD is correct. There can be some dark times before the light at the end of the tunnel.

[bandnmom]

As you can see from my lastest 2 posts this is the place to be when you need help! It does get easier but as i learned today there are dips in the road of recovery. But with all the help here i made it past that dip and i am still truckin down Recovery Rd.

[opi]

thx peeps........i'm not going to use...ever...just having a crazy head day...dealing with the mess i've made is screwing with me

[MizDemeanor]

Hey Opi,
It gets worse before it gets better. I am just past the one month mark, and it sucked eggs and still does, BUT its better than living your life chasing pills, risking your health and freedom, ruining relationships, losing jobs, etc. If none of that has happened to you, you are very lucky. If you can tell your Fam Dr I think thats a great idea. I work for the same company as my fam dr so I couldnt tell him. My surgeon cut me off a month after surgery. Boy was I mad at him then, and now I actually feel he saved my life. Him and this board, as lame or sad as that might sound. I was actually tempted to buy some online right before I found this board. How sad is that, my thinking was so befuddled that I thought risking my freedom for pills was ok. I also doc shopped. I'm lucky I'm not in jail. I still get temptation and cravings, but they have decreased. My mental status is clearing and OMG the trail of destruction my pills left is now here for me to clean up. Please keep yourself clean, going back now means you will either have to stop again and go through today and the past 7 days all over again, or keep using and playing the roulette wheel of "fate" that you deal yourself. Keep reading and posting, these people really care and many have tons of experience.
I also wanted to comment that I end all my posts with "peace", and it caught my eye in yours. It's what I wish for myself and everyone else including family members, etc, who are touched by this horrible addiction.
Peace

[GoingToMakeIt]

Yes it does get better. Sorry you're having a bad day. Every once in a while there is a bump in the road. Be sure to take vitamins and minerals.