Have you ever noticed....

[Dadof5kids1973]

that your mind or shall I say your addiction is always trying to find excuses to use...and it says just this one last time. Weather its from pain, the Big football game is on and I want to "feel good", the big party, a nice day outside, etc...But then the next day your addiction is back at it, just one last time????is there such a thing? I say no unless you flush what you got, cancell that script, erase those contacts, and get the aftercare that most of us dont seem to think we need.

[Victor322]

Hi everyone, just awoke from a nightmare (4 AM) that I was addicted to opiates again, the dream showing me how easy it was to get mentally/physically hooked again, causing me to awake in a panic from thinking that I was hooked again. For several minutes after-wards I paced the floors trying to determine (and wake up) if indeed I was lost in the horrors of  active addiction (again), a scary dream indeed.

The dream was probably related to some major dental work I had awhile back where-as the doc gave me a short script of Vikes and I felt like a little kid given candy  upon leaving his office. The Vikes had made me high, a feeling that I had missed and loved...while rationalizing the using of the meds with the thinking that "since I have no connections and once they're gone they're gone and I'll be done with them", but once they were gone I was really wanting more. Seriously. My mind was beginning to rationalize getting more if given the opportunity, even after +20 months of clean time.

Thank God that I had changed playgrounds and playthings a long time ago and had continued on with my aftercare with NA meetings otherwise that dental work could had very easily brought me back into active addiction again. It would had been that easy for me, no doubt. Wow. The mind can be so easily seduced by the offer of short-term pleasure even at the cost of eventual self-destruction. It was as if I had never gone through the horrors of w/d...all I knew was that the temptation to get more/do more was strong and once again rearing it's ugly head...unbelievable.

That dream sure woke me up in many ways, and I will continue on with my after-care. Take care all!

-Vic

[Skidmore]

Thats a well put statement .I know that my mind is often in the in=use mode.Today I try to reprocess the tought and make the right decision .No mater what dont pick up, stay clean and stay focused

[worried878]

I do remeber what u r speaking of as far as convincing ourselves we need to use..or in a way//for me//it was getting all panicky when i would think of the amount i was using each day...and get all afraid and stuff...but it would fade...i would slip into the using comfort zone again..only to panic again later on.....sometimes it is important to seize the moment and go for ti!  flush, cut off supply and ct for many///even a taper can leave time for the brain to get out of "panic mode" and be right back where we were in the first place

everyone is different...and what works for one doesnt seem to work for all....just think most r resistent to aftercare...support...addicts have a way of resisting the things that can help them....it is probable that 90% of those posting tonight do not seek any type of aftercare...we can be our own worst enemy

[Charetti]

I find that I want to reach for pills, even the OTC kind, out of habit.  I have gone for the tylenol and had to stop and examine my reasons.  The physical addiction is one thing and this pill popping habit another thing I need to break.

[pharma9]

What are TR pills...tylenol arthritis?I have mentioned many times that I get a good warm feeling when my extrastrength tylenol kicks in because it takes my pain away.But it usually takes about 1 hour before they work.Nothing works in 10 minutes.
I am actually glad that I get relief from tylenol because it is not a narcotic or habit forming and IT WORKS for me.That means that I have absolutely no need for narcotics.
Today I pulled muscles in my back just bending over to put on my boots.I took 2 extra str ibuprofen and 2 extrastr tylenol and went to work.In about 1 hour my pain was minimal and I was able to work all day.When I got home I took 2 extrastrength robaxacet and 1 hour later they kicked in and my pain is relieved.I am now sleepy and going to bed.

[Gpison]

I had a really strange moment today actually. I have been clean for 250 days at 7am today. No real issues at all, just overall doing great, then today I had to take some arthritus meds, just OTC stuff, now mind you I have stayed away from acetomenephine since I quit taking norcos, well I took 4 TR pills and about 10 minutes after I took them I got that same taste in the back of my mouth and nose that I used to get when I took the norcos. It hit me pretty hard for about ten minutes then went away. The problem was that I liked it. Needless to say, I dumped all of the pills and will stay away from anything with acetomenephine in it from now on. Even after 250 days, I just dont need the nudge.

[determinedwifemother]

I know exactly what you mean!  Well said!  Stay determined!  :)

[Beccabeccalynn]

My addiction will tell me anything to get me to use and lete tell you my addict brain knows me so very well, unfortunatly. My addict was able to run rampant for so long I have had to re-learn to think with a sober brain. I know what you are saying in your post. My addicts favorite one is your a victim someone has wronged you now you may use. I have had to adopt the counter to that thinking! Regardless of what someone has said and done to you, you don't use period..
Good post,
Becca

[cleanmom]

I have been going through this very thing with my mind for the last five years and you are right if i never did those things i would still be going through it. These are things i believe every addict must do. Our minds are so powerful, hence the addiction. Glad to know im not alone.    Jacky

[Dadof5kids1973]

1 more thing the biggest thing is that you have to want to quit!!