MY FIRST DAY

[drakeBpat]

so here I am! Again.... It gets old I know but I worked last night and I woke up today to start fresh ! I did take my last one at 7 this morning but here I am again. I deleted my contacts for good , I made sure after I got ready to look and see if I had any floaters around and I don't so I am here dedicated to change and I will . I'll say it one more time, of course I'm scared but I do really want this. So let the long road begin ... Thanks to everyone that has stuck by me and put up with my stubborness. I do also work tonight and tomorrow night so therefore that will help hopefully! Just pray for me!

[spider6]

Sweetie, that's the stuff I would think about while I was detoxing.....omg...it's getting worse each time I f*ck up!! ......it was enough.  The last few years (yes years), of my bs I would wake in the dead of night suddenly, breath pulled from my lungs as I would shoot straight up in bed and I'd have this fantastical moment of absolute clarity what I was doing to myself and I would immediately go to that sinking gut, racing heart of realization feeling...omg! I'm so scared what have I done!?  

I started to have physical ramifications (bowels), not cute.(and I'm cute!) lol.
That scared the sh*t out of me! Pun intended!!

Make this the charm honey...we're here.  Hugs

[drakeBpat]

Thank you , definently will!!

[Sarbie]

Hi Drake, great to see you here!

[Dozeman]

Great to see you to give it another shot hang in there

[drakeBpat]

3rd times a charm

[drakeBpat]

Thank you I have real bad anxiety but I'm just trying my best not to think!! And I feel extremely SICK ALREADY and I felt naseaus last time bit nothing like this I keep gagging and stuff its terrible! But I got this!