May I lecture? Want your permission first, because I think you know what I am going to say.....
Thanks for all the support and understanding. I want to be on the Sub as short a time as possible so, i guess I'll start tappering after the first week, like suggested.
I really can't wait to do this! I want to feel like I did "pre-drugs". So tired of this ****, my life revolving around my pills or lack of them. Always wondering if I'll have enough to finish a job. Always counting them, like their a bottle of diamonds I need to keep track of. Would you beleive Mary & I have developed, without realizing it, our own little code words regarding the pills, like "the aahh factor" , the feeling you get when the pills kick in, and "falling down" ..when the pills wear off, & "pill me" means get Mary a pill out of her purse while shes driving. OH to be done with this nonsense once and for all and feel normal. Tommorrow will be my last day of pain meds. yeah!!!!! I feel like I'm getting ready to go on vacation. Very excited!
Not mad at you ladies and Im glad you confessed. I suspected as much a long time ago when you both sorta stopped posting suddenly with no explanation. Wishing you both the best and hope the Sub works out for you guys!
hi, Im a newbie, you are not a fck up, your kinda my hero. goiong to the dr, geting on sub your ding what it takes. Please share your wisdom, g-d knows us new kids can use it. Teach
PS, afterwards I would be a bit tired but nothing some vitamins wouldn't cure and it didn't last long. I had relatively no PAWS but I was on zoloft which in my opinion is God's greatest invention!!
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I am sober 6 years from alcohol and illegal substances. I had a horrible pregnancy (yes this road started while I was pregnant) riddled with pain that cuased my blood pressure to spike. So after 2 operations and a subsequent herniated disc and torn ligaments from 2, yes 2 car accidents whilst I was pregnant.... my road to yet another addiction began. I would say in total I was ont hem for about 4 months as prescribed by my ob/gyn, never more than 2 7.5 vicodins a day. After my daughter was born, I graduated to 5 mg percs, then 10 mg percs and for about 5 or 6 months or so I gradually got up to 30 10 mg percs a day, popping 5 at a time just to get that 1/2 hour high.
So I woke up, much like I did when I was drinking and said no more. I went c/t. I wanted to die but just when I was about to turn the corner at day 4 or so, I took 1 to take the edge off and suddenly I realized my tolerance was lowered so I took 1 here and there and then it quickly became an issue again so I went the Sub route.
By normal I mean like I felt before the pain pills. I was clear headed, not lethargic, normal. The longer you're on it the worse your w/d will be. Don't let the dr tell you to stay on it for 6 months. They say that so you can use that 6 months to get your life back together but if you take it to detox and start NA or AA or therpy and keep a plan in sight you won't need to be on it as maintenance. The docs don't know as much about it as they think. They tell you they will take you down 2 mgs every couple of months and that you can jump off at 2 mg but thatis a death sentence. Take it from me, no more than 21 days IF that.