Please help w/ dangerous vicodin addiction

[nikkibeans]

Hi,

I am not so sure how this actually works. I am experiencing a dangerous vicodin and pain killer addiction. I have been using vicodin for about 3 years now daily. I started off taking one or two here and there and recently within the past year i have been taking about 5-8 750 milligram vicodin during the week and anywhere from 8-12 on the weekends. I have been experiencing unbearable symptoms when i run out and people close to me are concerned at the amount i am starting to consume, I really need help as i don't know who can help or how to get the help i need. My biggest fear is the amount i am starting to consume and what it is doing to me. Can someone please help???

[nikkibeans]

Thank you to everyone for their responses. It has been 3 days now since i ran out. The w/d are becoming so unbearable that i am becoming afraid and depressed. I have so much severe pain in my bones in my legs and feet. My mom mad a appointment to see a specialist but its not until March 18th. They told her they are going to probably put me on methodone and decrease the dose of the vicodin. I can honestly say that i will be getting another batch of vicodin before i try and quit again. As sad as it sounds i think i gotta do them ONE MORE TIME. I really am getting alot of support from my boyfriend but am starting to feel like i can't be me without it. It worries me that i will loose my job and not be able to become successful because i have stopped taking it. I know this is the first full day of the w/d symptoms and all i keep thinking is how can i just get some. This is something i never thought would happen and it ***** to think what if i loose everything that has finally made me happy. :(  

Thank you again for everyone's advice and more would be appreciated.

[gnarly_1]

HI and welcome to the forum...you have come to a good place to seek help with your problem...there are many here that are in your shoes as well as many that have made it out...this is a good place to share lifes blessings as well as its pitfalls...no one will judge you here...so theirs 2 ways to go about this C/T where you just stop and tuff out the withdrawals or taper off slowly like drop one pill every 3 days or so until your down to
a lower dose then jump off...your withdrawal will be less sever that way but tapering takes a lot of will power and perseverance you have to set up a secedual and stick to it best you can....it helps if you got someone you can trust to dole out the pills to you
the main thing is that it sounds like your ready to try and the desire to quit is half the battle so pic a plan and just go for it...keep posting theirs lots of people here to support you....read the other posts so you no what to expect and you will also be incoraged by them...good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[kickinhydro]

Hi & welcome! Day 4 off hydros
750's also. Same amt sometimes 12 per day.
We r here 2 help so u r heading in the
Right direction. I crave them so bad right now. Been on & off some kind of pill since 2001. Vics r my DOC but done percs,
Loratabs, norcos... I stopped c/t I knew
I could not stick 2 a taper. Good luck &
Keep posting!

[sphynxs]

First off, you did the right thing..... Asking for help. I started on vicodin as well. Just like you taking them occasionally. It got to where I had to take 10 in the morning just to go to work and be a horse. You already are going in the right direction, by wanting help. If you must, taper yourself down. Quitting cold turkey is hard. Not impossible though. You have to want to quit though. Ask the people close to you to monitor the weening or quitting. Take vitamins, drink water. You can do it, I promise you. I am 20 days clean off of a SERIOUS opiate addiction. So if I can do it, so can you. You are young, don't let this evil take your years away from you. Keep posting here, we all can help you through this. Find someone close to you to talk to. You will make it through.

John

[browniev103]

Hi,

My suggestion would be to stop taking it entirely. You will only build up a tolerance and end up needing more and more. I am detoxing of Norco myself right now. It isnt easy but it will be in the end. Good luck to you.