The head games can be absolutley crazy at times. But please KNOW that they even out after time and everyone is different. Some takes mere days, some months, But don't even try to speculate on the far end at this point. Get through today and if that eems like too much, get through this afternoon. I felt like I'd never be the same EVER AGAIN. And, true, I am a changed person....I don't think I'll ever be the same, but I'm not depressed like I was. How can yu be the same after going through something as devastating as w/d's they're scary and they hurt emotionally and physically. But I am getting my happy cells back. I'm laughing again. My voice is changing tones again, not just the same dull meloncholy tone. You can make it without them. THe human spirit is strong. The power of healing is amazing. Our bodies are designed to heal.
my b/f and i are on day 4 of no oxy's and last night he's currently going throught that emotional rollercoster of depression. Me i'm fine but he's not doing great emotionally. I guess everyone is different.
Your brain literally becomes hyperactive. W/D has the opposite effect of the drug's effects, at first anyway. So if you took a depressant like alcohol, opiates, that's the deal. However, I didn't expect that after that, I was an emotional flip-flop, with days of bawling, feeling so desperate, all that ****. I don't think it helps emotionally to feel like **** from the actual w/d related anxiety and no sleep either. Sleep is terribly important to "reset" the brain if you will, it's so important for your emotional health as well as body. I think alot of people, me included, had it smack me in the face hard. It does pass though, and I'm happy to say, has left me with a renewed energy and back to my old self. The time it takes will be different for everyone though, depending on lots of different things. Congratulations on day 3 today right? Hang in there.
mandee, please post and let me know you are okay. i am worried about you.
cathy
The emotions that you think you have been numbing since doing your doc have only been set aside for a later date. They will all start to come flooding over you as you go thru withdrawels. Happy and sad. You'll cry alot, but you'll find yourself laughing too, like you haven't laughed in a long time. Your brain is starting to kick back in and you may get what they call a dopamine dump. All feelings seem very exagerated... you may feel like running thru a feild of daiseys. All this will level out. Enjoy it, you're starting to heal.
hi mandee, i just sent you a pm...nldfw is right dont look to far ahead...just take each day as it comes, or if you are like me the whole first week i took one minute at a time. as you head begins to clear you will begin to feel again, sometimes you will feel great and other times your addiction will talk to you to try and get you to use...its those times you gotta be prepared for, have a plan on how you will talk back to your addiction and win. get on here and post your feelings you will get lots of feed back, and always remeber this too shall pass...if you can hold on for just a few minutes those feelings will pass and you will be okay til the next time. i am here anytime you need me..you are doing awesome, keep it up!!!!!
cathy
p.s. what u mean you have not gotten that refill YET ummmmdon't get it girl you are working on day 3!!!!!!!!! yeah hang on it is so worth it,
love ya
cathy
focus day by day and stick to your plan...I have not had any severe depression or anything...just some reflection on parts of my life that need attention...I feel it is a healthy thing and kinda feel lucky to be given this oppurtunity..many who are addicts have issues that they never work on their whole life...if it were not for this addiction, i probably would not have...so i feel i will be a better person than I was before addiction one day
Hey Girl- congrats on day #2 :) That's awesome!!! I'm day #6 and about back to normal. I've had a challenging day @ work, and lots to do @ home w/ hubby and baby- but it's ok. I think more than anything- you need to be careful not to expect a big depression. For some people, they may get very depressed, or feel anxious long after physical w/d's have passed, and some people just have challenging days or rough days- that they would've had either way and either find a way to deal with those days or they reach for something again. Obviously all of us have somewhat of a mental addiction/issue w/ these pills that will linger, but try and remember that you don't have to wait on this- or look for this emotional issue- just stay positive, focused, and give yourself LOTS of praise and realize what you're accomplishing here. Some people never get the chance to live a clean life. Some people die from these addictions. Definently seek help on an emotional level if you can (NA, therapy, etc.) to help you maintain your sobriety and function without meds on a daily basis. You will do great here- there's SO many wonderful people to lean on, people w/ lots of wisdom. I'm only on day#6 so I'm not sure how great my wisdom is. I was like you though- day #1 was the WORST for me- and got easier from there. I've had some moments- but I just keep telling myself how far I've come in only 6 days- and remember the nights I prayed to have the strength to do this- and I almost CAN'T be down then. As they say around here- dig deep- keep posting :)
I didnt really get too ready for this either...13 days later now....I was focused on the physical aspects and taking care of myself during WDs....after you quit using...you start feeling emotions again...if i felt something before that was not pleasant i would take a pill...that behavior persists for me...have not take my doc but you know u wanna reach for something to make it go away...quick...I had a patient last week who was driving me nuts and when i left her room, the first thing i did was reach into my pocket for my pills...they were not there...these feelings pass quickly but i can see how this will be the harder part of the ordeal for me now...I thought...BOOM...no more tabs and I am OK!...i am discovering the reasons I have done this to myslef and u kinda lay low..got some inner healing to do that has notheing to do with withdrawals...aftercare is more important than the CT thing....but u have to focus on that right now....do not get ahead of yourself....keep posting