Taper from snorting

[shauna268]

It's funny because I know eactly what to do..the steps I have taken are the right steps towards progress, recovery and success. Tomorrow will be week four of my tappering. The closer to the ending I find myself becoming anxious. I am so habit fourming of snorting my pills...that once my tapper is complete, I think this will be my biggest challenge. Any help or suggestions? And once I am down to my final week...will I still go through withdrawls?

[GoingToMakeIt]

You are never stuck in a cycle! You make choices. I am not blaming you, just letting you see your own thinking. When you truly decide you're done. It will happen, eventually. You are already putting yourself onto that path.

[shauna268]

The detox was a no medical facility. Not a recovery treatment facility...

[shauna268]

Currently I am on the waiting list for HOMEWOOD recovery in Guelph. I want so badly to get better… but I guess I am still stuck in the cycle of chasing the high. Maybe I don’t sound as dedicated as I should or maybe slightly immature for my responses, and I apologize for that. The reality of being sober, and having to face the issues that let me to relapse.. is what scares me the most. Plus the withdrawals.....I always know...the second night in...I cave. Late time I was in detox...I sabotaged my own recovery by having a 'friend' come visit and bring me 4 80's. But I want sooo badly for this to be the last time!! I want to be ready!!

[avisg]

you can stop its not easy but you can it you really want to get better and get out of the addictive cycle you need to stop the snorting NOW!!!!!! Have you found a recover care program yet .That will help you alot .. turst me do understand what you are going threw i was a chewer I also chewed my pills the first few day i would panic after I swallowed but you just have to remind yourself you just wanna get better.

[shauna268]

how do I do that? they didn't really suggest that I snot them...but nore did they recommend me not to.

[GoingToMakeIt]

I do hope that the place that you went to; "I went to a withdrawal mgt support team who helped devise a taper plan for me. Didn't tell you to keep snorting. If they did you might ask avisg or  IBKleen to re-evaluate your taper plan?

[GoingToMakeIt]

You want to not have you body getting instant jolts of these meds. You are trying to get your body used to a steady amount that gets less and less as you taper. While you're tapering read up on Addiction in the Health Pages http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/list?cid=66  ; Especially amino acid protocol, maybe  Thomas recipe and the 3 PAWS series.

[shauna268]

Yeah...I still am snorting. I tried to swallow my first day tapering and began to panic. I know alot of this is mental...I just don't know how to beat it. Within my last two weeks of tapering I will be doing my assestment tool package with my withdrawl mgt support team and referal from my doctor to try and get me a placement into treatment. I realized that this is why I have been unsucessful every other time. Three weeks ago I was a 300mg daily user....tomorrow I begin my week of 30mg 3x daily. MASSIVE reduction!! but the snorting...I can't stop...why?

[avisg]

are you still snorting your pills? If you are you need to stop that NOW !!!!! swallowing only ok . Yes you will most likely still have some wd on you final week and most likely several days after .So switch over to swallowing if you not ok :)

[GoingToMakeIt]

You will still have withdrawals, but the tapering makes them much less.  Congratulations on your decision to get free. Part of recovery is aftercare. Like AA or NA, have you thought about that?