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I want to feel good again
Hi iv been reading posts and comments for about a month now u guys seem great so I finally am posting I was taking hydro for 2 yrs I went ct 3 weeks ago today I just want to know that it does get better and when will laundry picking my kids up or going to the store won't seem so dam hard. Oh and my face and hair feels oily is that normal wen does that stop if it is. Btw Im 31 with a good husbandi finally told him the truth about a month a go and asked him for his help and support and he's doing his best he's almost the only person who knows about my pill issue. I have 3 great kids and can't wait to feel good for them tierd of feeling down and them having to suffer for it sorry that I'm rambling it does feel good to write this Thanks
Hi, I've never heard about swimming affecting your back. I would have thought the opposite. Best things seems to try it out first and see if you can consult with anyone there at the Y. I occasionally do sit ups if I'm experiencing back pain - that has worked wonders!
There's a YMCA next to me with a pretty good sized pool. I think I'll try that. Do you have any advice for people who have back problems and try to swim. I feel like I read somewhere that you can actually aggrivate your back more with swimming. Thanks!
I made a suggestion to someone else in your situation to try an activity. For me, believe it or not, I feel lack of motivation from living with someone on pills. The addicts behavior of sitting around for unbelievable stretches of time watching reality tv has side affects of making me feel lethargic. One day I said f**** to this and found a beautiful olympic pool in my area. That was 2-3 months ago. Since then I've been swimming 1-2k meters per week and feel stronger than I've ever felt. Like a teenager again. When I finish laps and go home, I feel amazingly refreshed for the entire day. By the next day I'm already dreaming of going back. You can't believe the level of invigoration it brings to you. You can't believe the amazing strength both mental and physical that you reap from this activity. Now my friend comes with me who's overweight. One day at the pool he said 'thanks for saving my life'. There is something about water that allows you to meditate - the sound along is therapeutic - the slight chill reminds you of your precious body at every second. Most importantly it causes your brain to receive natural rewards. Water is amazing - I highly recommend this as a lifestyle change and solution to your tiredness ;)
That's weird I don't have barley any night sweats I hope that it goes away soon. Ya my lack of energy and motivation is bad I hope it gets better already it's driving me so crazy how long did it take u to get those back. I think I let my mind get the best of me I think to much I can't wait till this is a bad memory ughhh
I don't recall how long the oily skin and hair thing lasted. I do remember using a lot of Nivea face wash for men. Maybe a month.
That I didn't mind at all since I figured it went hand in hand with the night sweats I was experiencing. It's the lack of energy that always screwed me up. I think more than anything else the lack of energy caused me to relapse so many times. I could get through the day being sick but I just couldn't face the day with no energy at all. So I would start using again not to stop the sickness but to give me back some energy to carry on at work and at home. Once I finally stuck it out and got past the lethargic no motivation period I was able to really focus on getting clean. I mean, really, who gives a crap about tomorrow when I feel so terrible today. It takes a lot of strength and determination to get past the withdrawal phase, but once you do it becomes so much easier to start dealing with life issues and maintaining sobriety.
It just takes time to get there. You know as you get older time goes by faster so maybe that's what helped me to wait it out. When I tried to quit in my 30's a month felt twice as long as does now. I'm mid 40's now.
Post and read here everyday and before you know it time will have rolled by in no time.
That I didn't mind at all since I figured it went hand in hand with the night sweats I was experiencing. It's the lack of energy that always screwed me up. I think more than anything else the lack of energy caused me to relapse so many times. I could get through the day being sick but I just couldn't face the day with no energy at all. So I would start using again not to stop the sickness but to give me back some energy to carry on at work and at home. Once I finally stuck it out and got past the lethargic no motivation period I was able to really focus on getting clean. I mean, really, who gives a crap about tomorrow when I feel so terrible today. It takes a lot of strength and determination to get past the withdrawal phase, but once you do it becomes so much easier to start dealing with life issues and maintaining sobriety.
It just takes time to get there. You know as you get older time goes by faster so maybe that's what helped me to wait it out. When I tried to quit in my 30's a month felt twice as long as does now. I'm mid 40's now.
Post and read here everyday and before you know it time will have rolled by in no time.
Hi. Hey, we all felt that self-loathing. I found myself thinking back to drinking in high school, and wishing I had never put anything "toxic" in my body... anyway, don't beat yourself up. It doesn't help. Get mad at the drugs all you want, but not yourself. Stay encouraged. Tomorrow will be better. It may be little, but it WILL be a little better...:)
Ty your sweet I just want my energy back and love life with out taking pills I just turned 31 so hopefully my 30s will be good :)
I think you can really tell from peoples words when there is true desire and goodness burning through. You have it ;)
No I don't think your selfish this is a hard situation and I do know that movie it made me cry lol well I hope I figure out a plan soon the sooner she quits the sooner shell get better I'm so glad I posted today I should have done it a while ago
I'm still thinking of how to deal with this. I've addressed it before in the past and able to make some progress, but it consistently returns with relapse. I do know that this support group is making me realize that the next confrontation should include encouragement to use a support system. In my head, I know that is right but I also keep thinking of the images of the movie - forgot the name, Meg ryan is the alcoholic, you know the one. She finally comes clean but at a cost to her husband who realizes that her sobriety involved her making a strong bond with another addict and there's even a point in there where she snaps at him emphasizing that his support is nothing compared to being able to have an understanding companion addict. It just makes me think that the ultimate solution will probably render me into an auxiliary role of her new enlightened being. That sounds selfish doesn't it. It's just how I feel, but it shan't stop me from doing the right thing.
Thanks Hagendaz Im sure it's so hard for u to deal with all the mood swings I have to say I tried never taking it out on my kida there my world I do feel bad that I haven't had much energy for them I actully took them to the park and lunch today which made me feel so good if u don't mind me asking do u have a plan yet with dealing with this and how many kids do u have. U sound like such a nice person. @hisked I hope u are right I can't even believe it's been 3 weeks already I do try to force my self to exercise and iv been taking multi vitamins plus b12 n drinking ensures I just can't wait to just feel normal again and stop thinking about those pills and how I got to this point I'm so mad at my self
Wow! Do you realize that you are already on the other side of this thing??? I'm not saying complete or whole, but through so much of the hell. You ought to be SOOOO proud of yourself!!!
The number #2 thing I would say besides the encouragement from your husband and others (community) is exercise. Even just walking at a steady pace if you can every day can be amazing. I'm on day 25 CT from oxy (back problems, taking it for 13 months). Anyway, I had a pretty good "turn the corner" day on day 21. But it really took me being conscience of walking, eating right, vitamins, lots of water, etc. And I wasn't even doing that stuff before the oxy.
I'll pray for you and as you could see from watching for a month, the people on here are one of a kind. Keep posting and you'll be amazed how much some posted encouragement can get your through the tough times.
The number #2 thing I would say besides the encouragement from your husband and others (community) is exercise. Even just walking at a steady pace if you can every day can be amazing. I'm on day 25 CT from oxy (back problems, taking it for 13 months). Anyway, I had a pretty good "turn the corner" day on day 21. But it really took me being conscience of walking, eating right, vitamins, lots of water, etc. And I wasn't even doing that stuff before the oxy.
I'll pray for you and as you could see from watching for a month, the people on here are one of a kind. Keep posting and you'll be amazed how much some posted encouragement can get your through the tough times.
Hi Love, I think one thing that might help you in your long term success is this...note this might not apply, but if it does then great.
Firstly one of the huge factors in driving my wife to it all is feeling sorry for herself. I know there are other factors but this one is a key player. She spends a vast amount of time believing that she is inundated with obligations of rearing kids. But the reality is that although they do yell and demand, a couple of hours a day of rest is really the acceptable level - not 8 hrs a day. She is in a pattern that the more I help, the more she expects. Some days, she can watch the tube all day and if there is one demand from them, she flips off the deep end proclaiming, can I please just be left alone.
In perspective, 8 hrs a day of f***ing off is unheard of. The drug will allow you to believe that you deserve more and more out of others and if you don't get it, you may begin to feel a victim and start pitying yourself more.
I'm so glad you express that you want to feel good - you will do it. Just remember that natural high is only possible with natural lows and as soon as they are snuffed by unnatural methods, the natural high of life fade into a distant fog. When you are low, you need to switch your mindset from obsessing on your current position to the obsession to naturally overcome and take on the challenge to improve yourself. It is the plight of life, for each person make themselves a better person with each passing day. As a human you are blessed to have been armed with these traits, you just need to remember that you have them ;)
Firstly one of the huge factors in driving my wife to it all is feeling sorry for herself. I know there are other factors but this one is a key player. She spends a vast amount of time believing that she is inundated with obligations of rearing kids. But the reality is that although they do yell and demand, a couple of hours a day of rest is really the acceptable level - not 8 hrs a day. She is in a pattern that the more I help, the more she expects. Some days, she can watch the tube all day and if there is one demand from them, she flips off the deep end proclaiming, can I please just be left alone.
In perspective, 8 hrs a day of f***ing off is unheard of. The drug will allow you to believe that you deserve more and more out of others and if you don't get it, you may begin to feel a victim and start pitying yourself more.
I'm so glad you express that you want to feel good - you will do it. Just remember that natural high is only possible with natural lows and as soon as they are snuffed by unnatural methods, the natural high of life fade into a distant fog. When you are low, you need to switch your mindset from obsessing on your current position to the obsession to naturally overcome and take on the challenge to improve yourself. It is the plight of life, for each person make themselves a better person with each passing day. As a human you are blessed to have been armed with these traits, you just need to remember that you have them ;)
Bless you for being so supportive of your wife! I remember the beast all too well, with only a week clean going by for me....God it was just soo much funner doing things while high on pills.....but.....in the back of my mind there was always my conscience telling me "You can't do this forever, this is not you, this is no way to live" I feel for you and your wife, being on both ends of the spectrum....my hubby has had problems with drugs too. You're right when you say watching an addict can take your dignity away too. You know, that was one of the reasons I started doing morphine, i told myself WTF? If he's having such a good time of this why shouldn't I try it too.....well I know all too well how that turned out.....it's not a good time, it's a viscious cycle. i'm ending this cycle now and trying soo hard to return to myself. Keep being supportive of your wife, tough love is a good motivator for an abuser....believe me!
Oh and eye iv read your story to like I said iv been reading posts for a month now it's helped alot u guys seem so great I'm glad u got clean that's great all the good storys give me hope
Hi Hagen yes iv read your post I relise how hard it is for a spouse to deal with the thing is he knew I was taking them just not how many I was getting them from my doc for bad back pains he just didn't know I was buying some to after I told him I quit the day after and no I don't ever want to go there again I just want to feel better for me and my family I feel bad for my husband now cause he's been having to pick up ex slack around the house and with the kids plus he works 11 hr days it ***** bit I'm deff trying everyday to do more btw have u confronted your wife yet I hope things get better for her to u Honstly sound like such a caring husband
Nice job on getting the first 3 weeks under your belt. Once you get past the terribly sick feelings of withdrawal you're going to be left with a little depression and and a severe lack of motivation for a couple of weeks longer. Then slowly but surely you'll start doing a little more around the house until one day it hits you that "Hey, I'm feeling pretty good" and that moment is so worth what you went through to get there.
I have found that taking Niacin and a super b complex along with a multi vitamin has really helped to restore my energy levels and to increase my metabolism.
Good luck, you're on your way now.
I have found that taking Niacin and a super b complex along with a multi vitamin has really helped to restore my energy levels and to increase my metabolism.
Good luck, you're on your way now.
I hope you stay off. I'm a husband of an abuser who has been on and off for a long time. Just so you know, it is quite obvious when pills are in the picture - eventually as a spectator you begin to recognize all the signs. When she is on pills, she is generally pleasant, but whenever the flow is depleted, between re-supplies, a beast emerges. Flagrant deception ensues where volunteering to do things that she'd otherwise avoid, such as getting groceries, picking stuff up she insists upon doing - of course, because these activities are excuses to include trips to supply sources. Once there is a week or more supply, I'm now encouraged to do the reqular leg-work of groceries and other chores so that she can live in-front of (ironically) reality television and eat in bed. Dinner time, that's my problem. When the binge continues for long enough, sleeping habits include horrible snoring, leg kicking in the middle of the night, frequent trips to pee and waking in 4 hour incements. The most insulting part about it is the deception...so rude...so obvious...so offensive. As a spectator you begin to wonder if you are thought of as a complete cuckold - how rude is that, that the drug begins to passively rob even spectators of their dignit.
Ya my kids Honstly is the one this that keeps me going to that's great one week my first week was hell I thought I was just going to loose it it's nice to know that there's others like me and finally talking about it my husband is doing his best but he don't understand what I'm feeling and my best friend she takes pills to and when talking to her it gets me no where I don't thinks she relises how much trouble she's in she just sais shell quit soon I just hope she does for her and her kids
Thanks for replying loulou ya I do take vitamins and I do feel better then I do I just feel down alot just like my energy is gone I can't wait till this is just a bad memory
Congrats on 3 weeks! I'm at one week today. I didn't realize how much hydro, and any opiates, can deHydrate you when your using them, lol! Until i quit, that is. I've been getting oily skin and hair too....I think it's from all the sweating out of the chemical in your body. It's going to get better everyday for you from here. I have 3 kids too, 3 beautiful girls :) oh how that keeps me going through all of this! They need their real mom, not drugged up mom, everytime i look at them it gives me hope for a better tomorrow. And you know what? When i don't use, everyday so far has turned out to be a better day! Just think of how far you have come from 3 weeks ago, you have 2 years under your belt and it will take an even shorter time to get back to you......keep waiting it WILL come!
Ur getting there, everyones different but you should start feeling better as far as mood goes soon. I'm at 9 weeks off pills and about week 5-6 I really started feeling better emotionally. For awhile I felt like I was so depressed and I was forcing my self to do everything that needed to get done. I also have 2 boys and a husband. Ur doing great just keep going and others recommend vitamins and such. I didn't go that route. It's so worth it to do this for yourself keep up the good work.
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