Thank you for taking the time to talk to me..thanks to everyone!!!! I will one day be where your at....I'm very inspired by you and everyone else.
I agree w/ Never again: Qpatty wrote a GREAT post. Jones, honey, you have been going thru this hell for 6 weeks. The "funny" thing is you could have had the acute wds over and done w/ by now. Seriously, why not just jump ship and go ct? What's your reason? What you're doing is the equivalent of being smacked every day for 6 weeks and counting vs. being smacked for a week to 10 days. Which would you choose?
What I am about to write, I cannot stress enough. I urge you to DO what the old timers on this sight suggest. People like IBKLEEN, Gnarly, Dominosarah, Weaver, VIcourageous and other wise regulars that are on here a lot. These folks have long term sobriety. They have been thru everything and STILL have long term sobriety. Listen to them. Don't listen to your addict brain. It's making you crazy as it does all of us!
Thank you-I meant every word of it.
There will always be reasons why now is not a good time. There will never be the perfect time. After 2 or 3 days there is nothing you can't do while not taking pills. You may think you can't but you can. That is how I made this time different from all the other countless times that I had tried. I refuse to allow myself to lay around feeling bad. I FORCED myself to keep moving, keep working, keep living no matter what I felt like. We are stronger than we think-you will be amazed at what you can do, just try it.
Today is the fist day that they are out of my house....my hubby has that and he left me my eight....I just took 3 and I'm leaving a half to take before bed. But I feel right now because I'm high that I can do this half a pill taper. As my previous posts state there's no way in hell I can stop cold turkey. I've recently been offered a job...at the modular home park where I live, the manager remembered me when we moved in here and want me to be her asst. ha know answer phone and she even want to train me to sell houses....I facked sick already, before I even started and she called today to see how I was feeling and I told her much better. So Thursday I go in from 4 to 7. My point is I am freaking out...this pill has taken every ounce of confidence I have. But I must do this to help my family get our life back and get out of this place!!! No offence to trailor parks.