New Ways Of Life

[Sallie_Sunshine]

I'm a 23 Y.O woman.. I have done two alcohol detox's in my life, first I was taught 'tough love' and done without any meds in 2007 (maintained it for 6 months) the second one I was put on a ward at the local hospital  taking a drug to settle the 'DT'S' (can't spell the name!)  when I left I was put on anta buse and stayed sober for nearly eight months in 2010. But got sneaky and stopped the tablet. Also ended up with a heroin addiction for three months. Knew that was not myself so got a script (with clean urine samples) I have over come the methadone detox this year! On my own.. (HARD WORK)-2011 I'm waiting for my assessment this Monday to get placed for a detox, In the last ten days I have stayed away for any spirit just stayed on the Stella. Tried to reduce by a few cans but end up getting 'SMASHED' I would love to know how people maintain 'A NEW WAY OF LIFE??'   (I crossed addicted from young-pills,cannabis,wizz,uppers or downers).Anything that made me feel good about myself....  There is just a little of the in's and out's..... I would love for others to share their experience with me.. As addiction can be lonely from time to time. For some always... I've tried AA meetings-something always got in the way..... Church seems to help but I have no courage in myself right now to believe.... Its tricky... Thanks for reading God Bless one and all....... Sunshine -x-  (Not really hot on words-hope it makes sense)

[Sallie_Sunshine]

Its the alcohol that I have the issue's with.... More like one's allergic to it, It leads me down roads I'd never dream of when I'm sober..Hence I started using heroin... The detox is only for ten days, the after care is/would be an open house what I refused to go into as there is some long term people who suffer with mental health (who drink) I may as well stay at home in my surroundings if it's like that.... Its a six week placement-open house.. (Not for me) I'd like to go into rehab for a year, but it's all down to funding, I'll have much more news to share on Monday as I'll have an heads up about the dates I'll be admitted.. Stella is a 5% larger... I try and stick to the one brand, sometimes its never that easy... Some say "easier said than done" I know where I go wrong and weak.... I help everyone else maintain a sober life and forget about the most important person-Myself.... As selfish and ignorant as it may come across its a FACT!! I attended to one relapse prevention group in 2010 when I was sober-same again one out of five people was sober (myself) and the rest was drinking/drugs.... So I explained to the guy who was running it that it did not suit my needs-now they have put people in categories for ones who are sober, reducing or active users.. I attend an alcohol reduction group on a Monday-never write all my units down as I forget how many drinks I have over the period of a week...  I wish I could wake up and not go to the fridge and get out the Stella,(addiction would be an easy ride then) My body needs it more than my mind.. Some days I will buy 8 cans and drink the lot, and still go out and get more.... Its sad really, I don't wanna be that drunk girl!! Or become 40 and have nothing under my belt and still in and out of detox.. I'm 23 I have time to change my ways if I find the right support! I believe people can change if they want to... This site is wonderful and shows me that I'm not on my own.. With a little guidance I can be the woman I've been wanting to be (without mood or mind altering substances) I will be placed on a structured day programme which is 3 days a week after the detox, three times I've tried to be placed on this I guess the time was not right.... Thank you for your comments... =]

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

Did you participate in any aftercare at any time when you got sober? For me, it was both therapy and meetings that helped keep me clean. I found I couldn't do it alone after countless attempts and finally, after participating in aftercare I was able to get some time under my belt and get on with my life.

[mebroken]

hi there, welcome!
i'm confused though from your post- what are you going into detox for- to get off methadone or alcohol or both? (what is stella?)
you had some clean time in 2010- what worked for you then and what didn't is what you need to figure out. if the detox has a residential program attached to go to afterward maybe think about doing that. they will teach you the skills needed to live a clean and sober life. don't freak out about how long the residential program is for ('omg 9 months! nooooo! i can't!'), you don't have to stay the whole time if you don't want to ya know. :) but suggest giving it a try, it will be time well spent for you.
good luck!