day two and feeling "strange"

[tcorley]

I took about an hour nap and woke up feeling "abnormally clear". Bored and really wishing my other half were here so I could just cuddle with him...I dont seem to have any new symptoms tho. mild trembles in the hands and feeling cold. no hot and cold flashes and no sweats. this feeling of being clearheaded is almost over stimulating though. its like looking around and saying to myself, "so this is what the world really looks like..." im not sure how to deal with this. wondering if i should take another 100 mg of the SAM E as i feel emotionally flat and really just wishing that something sounded interesting to do or watch on tv. any comments are greatly appreciated.

[catmagnet]

I ended up resorting to valerian for sleep myself. I did not experience any dependency on it. But I guess everyone is different. Keep up the good work. You are doing great =)

[tcorley]

lol the hyper emotion has set in, lol

[waterLilly7]

You go girl! eating already, that is great. Remember if youc an't eat, drink ensure so you keep your nutrition up.

You have a great attitude, you will beat this!

hugs,
Lily

[tcorley]

You are a doll. Right now the valerian is my saving grace for sleep but I plan to keep my dose low and drop it at day 4 or 5. So day 2 is coming to a close.I ate a lot today.more than I usually do. And I'm getting sleepy.hoping and praying for a restful night again and will post tomorrow and let everyone know how I'm doing.thanks everyone for the support today.with your help, I did not use today.

[waterLilly7]

In my personal opinion I would steer clear of the valerian. I don't know anyone who took it but I have read posts on the itnernet of people looking for help to get off of it, sooooo ......

Yeah the amino's are a great idea IMO, and the multivitamins, OMG YES! I never used ot take them, and now I still take them, and they really do help.
I won't ever stop taking them.

I think the ticket is to stay hydrated, keep nourished with food or ensure, and take the vitamins. and most importantly to keep reassuring yourself that all these bad feelings will go away, they are not there to stay. That was the biggest hump for me, I kept thinking that my anxiety was going to be different than the other people's and that it wouldn't leave. Silly me, it left alrighty, lol, and it feels so good to have my life back now.

I can't wait to read your posts after you are one month clean, I can't wait to see you post how great you feel, it will come, it sure will.

hugs,
Lily

[tcorley]

@ lilly: what do u think about the mulitivitamins and amino acids? usuall dose is 6 per day so im thinking maybe 8 to ten. and the valerian? im hoping in another 48 hrs i wont need that stuff anymore.

[waterLilly7]

I know this may not be a big consolation, but just the fact that you are missing his hugs and wanting him there is big. Its HUGE, as when I was where you are I wanted NOBODY, and I mean NOBODY. I was so anxiety stricken I couldn't answer the phone and was so paranoid out of my mind for anyone to see me or talk to me, and I could barely lift my head off the pillow due to the anxiety. It was so oeverwhelming.
SO YOU ARE DOING GREAT!!!

Keep it up, all this will be over soon.

IMO I wouldnt take too much of the SAM-E, as you want your own brain chemicals to kick in. I started with it, but then  stopped it after using it for two days and really didn't notice that much difference.

anyway, you are doing great, and soon this will all be over and a distant memory, a memory that will keep you from using again, it sure stops me! LOL
big hugs,
Lily

[tcorley]

i have been on and off for about 3 years. this time i tapered to 15 mg hydro. my last dose was only 5 mg because i had an odd number of pills

[solost170]

it is diffrent for everyone really by day two I was in full blown withdrawals but I was on alot of diff medications at one time so I was jumping off about four diffrent types so my situation may be totally diffrent than yours sweety. how much were you taking before you starting tappering and how long hun the more we know on here the more we can help guide you through this... and you are not alone there are lots of us on this site who will be there to help you even when you feel alone. I dont have a job and my hunny isnt in the marines but works all the time so I'm lucky to see him for about an hour each day somedays more. but with yours being gone that is a hard one but think when he gets back you will have this beat and can enjoy the clean time with him and there is an amazing world waiting for you just around the corner day two and three are usually the worst for physical withdrawals so you are almost through the thick of it. alot of ppl say tappering helps I couldnt do so I tried diddnt work well for me so I just made the jump cold turkey was the only way I could beat it. please feel free to ask me anything I will do my best to answer your questions honestly and openly.
solost

[tcorley]

thank you for answering. unfortunately my hunni isnt coming home from work forten days as he is a marine. he knew previously that i had a huge pill addiction but i told him i had resolved it on my own and i am glad that he is not here to ask me why my behavior is so lethargic. but also miss him dearly and the warmth of his hugs could pick me up out of the gutter right now. he was here on leave for a week and just returned two days ago to begin the process of checking out as hiswncontract is up and he is not re enlisting. i chose for that week to taper instead of jumping completely. got down to 15 mg of hydro and then jumped the day he left. i dont feel bad per say as far as physical symptoms go just off. and lonley so lonley. lost without him kind of thing but i know i need to go through this without him as i dont want to have a moment where i use him as my emotional punching bad. and i have this underlying fear that somehow this is all going to easy for me and horrible wd has to be coming tonight or tomorow. i wish i knew more of what to expect. any thoughts?

[solost170]

I had that problem as well I got bored easily, and the one comfort to me was this site and my hunny I would count down to the time he got home from work it always seemed better when he was home. so I understand where you are comen from, the clear head is normal you wll notice the longer you stay off the medication the more clear you will be. before long you will love that feeling I woke up one day and wanted to go out and hug trees life was amazing and beautiful keep up the good work we are all here for you. I'm so glad the withdrawls arent that bad for you. just try and keep your mind busy that flat feeling goes away. love and light keep the good work up
solost