Today is day 16 clean : ), BDay tomorrow : ), bro in law passed away Sat : (

[momwithnosleep]

In the last 16 days I have had my fair share of stress & tests thats for sure.
Daily stress of 3 kids..a hormonal 13 year old who is a perfectionist when it comes to her school & music (sings in 2 choirs, plays tuba in band and now learning percussion, piano & guitar..straight A gifted student)...9 year old twin boys who are BOTH ADHD and 1 has been a diabetic for 7 years.
I have learned to deal with the above without the Norco's & xanax!! YAY (and without screaming & fussing constantly)

Then it seems every week I get a HUGE test of not only my anxiety but my faith & sobriety as well.
My nephews 4 wheeler accident that could have easily killed him but instead he limped away with a concussion, stitches & a mean gravel burn.
This week my brother in law had a heart attack and was rushed to the hospital by airmed. We spent all Friday night in the hospital and he passed Sat morning. A month before his 47 birthday. : (
My husband father also died of heart failure before 6. So now I am worried even more about my husband (43). I took the summer off to be with kids and work on me and now I feel guilty because I don't have the extra money to take him and have him checked out. I can borrow money from my parents but he is too prideful for that.

Anyway, I am just SO thankful I could be there for my husband with a clear mind to be his rock after all he has gone through with me and him being my rock through it all!!

[jleeflcntrygrl]

I don't know how u manage! I couldn't do it! U are one STRONG woman! Prayers sent your way! God bless!

[clean_in_ks]

Well WOO HOO YOU....on these 16 days CLEAN!!!

Yes, you have a FULL PLATE......but you came off FIVE drugs and you are doing magnificent!  Please don't let feelings of "guilt" side rail you right now.  TIME has a way of healing many things.....not just our bodies.  

You are right that many things in life come our way that can threaten our sobriety and our faith.....but I have come to realize that even non-addicts go thru these life events and some how pull thru.  The more support I have and the more I grow spiritually....it seems the better I weather the storms.
I have learned one thing for sure......I cannot travel this recovery road ALONE.....I NEED other people that share my faith AND my recovery walk.

I'm very grateful that your nephew pulled thru the 4wheeler accident...and very sorry to hear of the death of your brother-in-law.  While I totally "get" why you are concerned about your hubby......please give yourself permission to take the summer time break and heal yourself.  You will be a much better wife and mama if you give yourself the time to build a strong recovery foundation.

I had a brother-in-law who was the youngest of 5 boys.... ALL his older brothers had heart attacks and so did their dad.  But THIS guy......didn't live like his other family members, his lifestyle and habits were different, and in spite of genetics and many, many tests that were all GOOD.....he has out lived them all and is almost 60 yrs old now.  It is a concern, of course, genetically speaking....but not a GIVEN.  If you can.... just trust that when the TIME is right that you will have the funds to have your hubby checked out to ease your fears.
I like ditties....and this one might fit:  "Don't trouble trouble till trouble troubles you".  LOL  
I hope you will get some sort of aftercare support lined up.....it's critical to a strong foundation....otherwise..many find themselves right back where they started (or worse) and wonder why.
Let us know how you're doing.....and again....HUGE KUDOS on 16 DAYS!

[nonights]

Awesome job of choosing you no matter what!! Life will work out.

[Jinx_777]

congrats on the 16 days!  I am so sorry for all your losses.  It seems we are always tested when we are at our most vulnerable, but you didn't let it get you.  be very proud of that.  You will forever be thankful that you were sober and able to be there for your husband.  hang in there