Will my excitement for life come back?

[Searchingdreamer]

How do I get passed the thought that without the pills I'm not excited about anything in life and I'm not motivated. The pills made me happy. I would enjoy doing everything, cleaning, organizing, helping my friends and taking care of my family. I would become talkative and more social.the pills made me want to do things.  It's like I'll never have that happy feeling again ever unless I'm taking Percocet. Why is this happening!

[stupidpill]

I am kind of in the same boat right now.  Tomorrow I'll be clean for a week.  My physical WDs are done But i don't have much motivation for anything, especially work.  I'm having a hard time getting anything done.  I know it will get better because ive been through this before but right now is hard.   I can say that it seems to be a little better every day.  Hang in there - you aren't alone!

[Whollymolythathurt]

Hey girl im in the same boat.  Day 4.5.  I so look forward to the day the motivation comes back.  Reading posts like Evolver help...before the pills i was high motor person.  I didn't even need the pills....then i had a reoccurring back problem come back & used the pills to keep the motor going.  dumb.  Thank God i did not do what some folks here did...keep upping the dosage.  I want my "old" motor back.  We can get through this.

It is interesting that it seems its mostly women who get teh restless leg thing.  I didn't...or dont have it yet.  I haven't read to many men stating they got it.  The sweat thing sucked but i was an athlete so i could roll with that.  Hot, cold, sweat...change shirt or sheets move on.  Being in public looking like i just ran a marathon never bothered me.  :)

Hang in there girl....days 5-10 seem to be pretty good turning points for the physical stuff.  The mental motor...may take longer.

[mommymarieme]

I agree with everything ibkleen said :) I know right now it isn't easy but you really do have to give it some time. Put on some music and get yourself up and moving. I know it is hard but you have made it 3 days already you are going through the worst of it. Everyday from now on will get a little easier you just have to push thru to get to the other side. I think alot of us moms thought that the pills helped us be a super woman but all they really did was hurt us. You will enjoy everything again honey but this time it will be real! You can do this we are here to support you!

[EvolverU]

Hi there & Welcome!

I hear your agony (read through your other posts) & it brought me right back to the 'acutes' (withdrawal) I'm not sure how long you used for but you've got to give it some time! I know you feel rough, rough, rough right now but I'm here to testify (as are many others!) that in retrospect, what you're going through right now will seem like a small price to pay to get 'yourself' back. IBKleen is so on the $! We have damaged our neural (& other chemistries) & it takes time to heal. You're on an emotional & physical roller coaster right now but this will ease. (I promise.) So, please, have patience with yourself & the process. I know that time is crawling for you right now but try not to count the days & hrs. Don't look down that tunnel & psych yourself out! Instead, start telling yourself in every second of every minute that you're stronger than you know -- that you don't have to give into the 'impulse disorder' that has been ruling your life. (We're our own worst enemies in this way!) YOU CAN DO THIS!! Try to think of your kick as an unpleasant but necessary initiation into the life of clarity, possibility & self-respect that you so deserve.

When the cravings come or you get impatient -- REDIRECT. Take a hot salt bath, listen to music you love, watch something funny, engage w/ supportive/sober friends/family, Journal, Walk around the block, stay on MH, whatever works. (You're worth it!) Consistency is the goal here. You're doing great so far & everything you're experiencing is completely natural! & Yes, some form of aftercare is a really, really good idea.

Are you a fighter? I think you are -- otherwise you wouldn't be here. Fight on..Hold Fast! We're here & we're pulling for you. ;-))

[IBKleen]

Unfortunately that feeling that you can take on the world is a false sense of security. If you return to taking the pills your tolerance will continue to build, you will need more and more to get to that place and one day they will turn on you. You are changing your brain chemistry (to put it simply) so each time you use and the more you use the more your brain becomes "damaged".

It has only been a few days clean for you. You need to give it time. You will heal and you will enjoy life again.

I strongly suggest that you engage in some form of aftercare. Whatever you choose will benefit you. Keep yourself busy and do the things you enjoy. Whatever you do just don't use.

Keep talking. It does help.