Passed my first trigger today!

[MizDemeanor]

Today was my first dr appt since I stopped using lortab/percs. I am post surgery and probably couldnt have gotten him to give me any more anyway, but the big thing to me was, I was able to go to the visit and not ask. The last time I was in his office I pitched a fit when he said I should try to start weaning off them. "You dont understand how much it hurts, wah wah" said Me. (which was mostly bs because I wanted them way more for the high than for the pain) "Too bad, these narcotics are addicting and you dont need any more" said the Dr. (Last visit)
Today I was able to address my "real" pain and how to prepare for PT, which starts next week. I even finally NOTICED today that my doc is a real cutie...lol
I just wanted to share this so that people who are thinking of coming off the meds and are scared will see a really "new" person doing this and an experience of going back to the dr and not having to beg or lie to get meds that I didnt need as many as I was taking. Now I just use motrin 800's and stuff like that. Yes, having surgery does hurt. Yes it sucks. But at least now Im getting clearer in my head than I have been in 2 years. I have alot of **** to fix, but I figure the longer I stayed in that purple haze, the longer it would take to fix the "****" and less chances of fixing it.
Good luck to everyone who wants to try and a BIG thanks to the ones here who have helped me.
Peace

[flmagi]

I'm sure it felt really good to walk in that docs office knowing your clean and not gonna ask for pills. How proud are you of yourself? Way to go. We're very proud of you too.
What a good feeling.
Keep it up.

[MizDemeanor]

Thanks to all who responded. If not for the people on this forum telling their stories and offering support, I fear I may be currently using an illegal source to obtain the pills. Actually I was considering using mail order when I found this board. Now tell me how stupid is it to order controlled substances through the US MAIL, hello federal pen...eeek!
I hope everyone's day is a good one.
Peace.

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Be strong you are going to face pills the rest of your life. You have to be able to say no. I broke my shoulder this summer after being clean for 6 months. I had to step up and say I can't take any type of opiates for pain. It was horrible but I got through it. Focus on the cute doctor instead. My Orthopedic is a beautiful man:-) Looking at him takes all my pain away.
You're doing great no joke, keep it up

[bmc1976]

Congrats on not asking for any! It seems like when we go to the doctor the only thing on our mind is to get more pain meds and not even addressing the problems that we may have. I hope the pt does you good and really helps your legitimate pain. Way to go!

[IBKleen]

Congrats! That is a huge hurdle.

Yes, we all have a lot to fix and that is a process. Keep up the good work!!