Just need some encouragement!

[Newmommy1207]

Hello all. I am currently on day 4 of Suboxone withdrawals and I am just plain miserable. I am a stay at home mommy to my 8 mo old. I have no energy to play with her and be a good mom. I went of Sub when I was pregnant with little to no w/d's. Because I am a recovering opiate addict, I declined all pain meds during my labor and delivery with my daughter. Well I was in sooo much pain I caved and took my leftover Subs to just survive. That was early Dec 2012 so I've been back on since then. I never went above 2mg the whole time. I lost my insurance and was paying out of pocket for pills. And I am hiding this from everyone. Even hubby. I am just afraid he won't understand. Most non-addicts don't understand Suboxone anyways. So I ran out Monday and woke up Tues in minor w/d. But Wed, Thurs and today have been just aweful. The worst is not sleeping. The RLS is worse than I had when I was pregnant. I didn't research Sub w/d until Wed when I was feeling so crappy. I wish I would have. I had no idea it could take weeks and weeks to even start to feel better. I'm sweaty, shaky, so weak, and I even have RLS during the day which makes napping almost impossible. Anyways, I'd just like to hear some positive reinforcement. I started using opiates when I was 18. I went on Sub on my 23rd bday. I've been on them since! Almost 6 years! Except while I was pregnant. I don't remember who I was before I started taking pills. I'm afraid of being a different person and messing up my life with my baby and husband. Thank you!

[Newmommy1207]

Thank you both for your comments. I truly appreciate it. I am 100% trying the Hylands Restful Legs tonight! I'm normally a pretty tough chick. But not sleeping isn't helping my negativity towards kicking this things a**! Thanks again!

[FourJays]

Hi and welcome....sorry your are feeling so bad :(  I never took subs so I can't comment on those specifically, but I am a long time opiate addict with my main drug of choice being Tramadol.  From what I have learned (here and in doing misc, research to learn all I can about this), withdrawal from the tram is/was a bit similar to the subs in that they are both synthetic and therefore stay in your body quite a bit longer than many of the other opiates.  My detox was extremely intense (course it didn't help that I took massive amounts of tram for over 10 years and quit cold turkey).  But even so, I want to encourage you here, because that really intense stuff did not last more than a week.  And I don't want to sugar coat it either, it wasn't like I suddenly felt fine after a week; it took quite a while for things like sleep, for example, to return to 'normal'.  But every day you put behind you is another toward a lifetime of freedom from the pills.  Please, you are so young and have SO much to look forward to with your child.  Don't make the mistake I did and let the pills steal even one more day.  I had a lot of RLS in my detox too, and I found that "Hyland's Restful Legs" (available at Walmart or Vitamin Shoppe), and hot tub soaks with Epsom salts were both really, really helpful.  My doctor suggested magnesium tablets; they help with the RLS and anxiety and sleep issues.  I still take it every day.  You should also check out the "Thomas Recipe" (I believe there is a link on the bottom of this page, or you can Google it) for some great info and suggested remedies for w/d symptoms.  

I am sure that others with sub experience will be along to give you some more suggestions.  In any case, please think positive and hang in there.  If you can, get outside and get a little sunshine and a walk, even a short one if you can manage (its a gorgeous day here in SE Mich!!!).  You CAN do this.  Keep posting . . .you are not alone here :))

[dominosarah]

I dont have any experience with sub but the ones who do will be on at some point.  Just wanted to let you know you have come to the right place.  You will find a lot of support here as we understand what you are going thru.  You will get thru this.  I know it is hard but you keep pushing thru.  You are worth the fight~