Ok..here we go again..

[sadinmichigan]

I have been wanting to post but have been unable...seriously..I have finally admitted that I am an alcoholic..sighhh..I think the stress of this past week really showed me how much so..I basically have been drunk since last wednesday and finally today I made a decision that I can NOT do it..I hate this..I basically traded one addiction for another as I have for a long time..but it got out of hand as thats what happens when your an addict..I do not know how to really go about this (except for the obvious) stop drinking....the desire is there and I know I have to fight it just as i have fought those darn pills..thankyou to all that have been there for me these past 6 months..I am going to ask all of you for prayers and/or advice..I think just the support alone will help me.You all have been wonderful and I plan to get my tail back on here. Thankyou to my friend that listened to my drunken a$$ for the past week..you are true blue..

[sadinmichigan]

I am finding myself very emotional right at the moment..I could never thank you all enough for the support and care you have given me..wow...wipe the tears..ok..I know I can do this..i had to get to the point I guess of beating myself up..i look horrible..kinda like someone took a baseball bat to my head and limbs..you would think doing that a few times would be enough...I am going to do whatever it takes..I have always resisted AA and counseling but...now I think is a good time..with everything going on at home..it's just all too much..divorce is a bad thing but i have done all I can do...teenagers..ahhhhhh..deep breath..still don't know where my precious daughter is..SO..I do need to find a different way to deal with all this stuff..heck, can't even get into the childhood thing..i think thats what always scared me about counseling..i don't want to go there..but, whatever i need to do..I am ready to fight..in my baby book it says on almost every page how STUBBORN i am.LOL..I need to use it to my advantage..I really have grown to care about many of you..thankyou guys/girls...you are the best group of people i have ever met..(funny..i feel like I know you all..lol)
All my love to each and everyone of you!!!

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You got it sister - I didnt wake up until it was too late for the liver......glad that you got an earlier call. Think about that next time you want a drink. I can describe some pretty gruesome symptoms of liver failure for you........please dont go there -   eagle

[joann1975]

sweetie...you can and will beat this! i know you.... i sent you a pm.... you know i am here for you ....love you! (sorry i didn't see this sooner...not been around much taking care of my friend after her surgery) joann

[memommy4]

You can do this!! I have read so many post on here the last 6 months and always see how strong you are. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Decisions]

Hi Sad,
The only thing I know is hydros.  But my dad was a alcoholic and so was my brother.
They both died from it.  Actually , complications from the disease.
Funny the way I look at things. I see alcohol abuse as a disease, but hydro use as a habit/dependenct/addiction. Maybe because I am still a bit in denial and I did take for a medical reason even tho I did go overboard..
I don't see myself as ever being a daily drinker. It's june and I doubt I've had more than 10 drinks this year.  the buzz never attracted me to keep going that way.  So I think I am lucky there.  My mom also never drinks, and maybe I inhereted it from her.

I hope you find your way out of "this" woods..  sad?  we don't want to lose you, and I have watched first-hand with it does to close family.  Funny, you can buy alcohol all day long and it can do you in faster than the illicit DOC some of us take.

I have a friend who was a alcoholic, and he quit c/t.  now and then, he has a glass of wine, etc.  He has been "sober" for 3 years, and  according to him he has had 4 drinks since on the wagon. He feels he can handle a glass of wine on rare occasion, but he programmed himself to HATE the habit of buying a 12 pack every night, and falling into a stupor.  It took his wife leaving him to open his eyes.

Get strong in your will to quit, and you can do it!

Best.. Decisions

[desperate1111]

sad, i know for a fact you can beat this. my sister was (is) an alcolholic. she now has a disease caused by drinking too much.  she has no feeling in her feet and hands. its called alcohol neuropathy something like that. she was in a wheelchair for alomst 2 years. i'm sure your drinking isn't that bad. if anyone can whip this its you! i quit drinking 15 years ago, i liked it too much. guess i just traded adictions too. looks like it runs in my family doesn't it. good luck to you.