On my 7th day of HELL!

[SHELLBELL79]

OMG! well i finally went to a 3 to 5 day detox. i know 5 days isn't long enough but its all i could afford.  anyway I am detoxing off of the fentayl or duragesic patch and i was taking 150mcg. before that i was on oxycontin 60 mg 2x a day and 3 vicodin es every 4 hours 4 x a day. i took these medications for my painful disease which is called chronic interstitial cystis and vulvodynia, basicly pelvic pain syndrome. its hell, well i started seeing a pain specialist who could do these treatments to really help with my pain and im waiting on a pain pace maker!!!. people who live in pain try it.  anyway so i got this other procedure done that was simialr to it called radio frequency and it helped a lot and i didn't have to take the vicodin es for the breakthrough pain, but i was having constantly raise my pain med every 2 weeks, so i had to detox. let me tell you i went throught tourture hell! i went in wed morning to start detox and they gave me clonodine and tramadol. i couldn't offord the subuoxone b/c it was $375 DOLLARS. i was juse weak and tired the first 2 days but the 3rd day i felt like i had the flu and i felt like total hell. they told me oh the 3 rd day is the worse and then you'll getr better. i don't think so. the pain i had was constant throbbing and burning. it never stopped. i was moaning and screaming. i never slepted one bit since wed night and its tuesday. i took about 50 hoyt baths from friday to monday night. every night i had the damn restless arms and legs. i have the heartburn. i had to go see my doctor yesterday because i was in excruciating, tourture pain and couldn't take another day. she said she didn't understand why i was stilll like this ans offered to put me in the hospital or on subuoxone. i didn't want to the hospital and have people tell me what to do and all that. i went through that getting off xanax at the same rehab she wanted me to go to. so i said i would stick it out one more day and find some kind of money for the suboxone tommorow. well after last night of having diareah, throwing up, naseauted and in severe pain, jittery , restlesss legs and arms that was it! well i woke up today (tuesday) out of pain and just exusted and very weak. i passed out this morning going to the bathroom. i haven't eaten since wed. i am drinking my gatorade and something is seriously wrong with my taste buds , b/c everything tastes like ****. i want to know if anytone experienced detox like this and when willi feel normal? whne am i going to finally SLEEP?? etc???  thanks ya'll! anyone dtoxing i will pray for ya'll!

[Jacqui805]

Let me say hello first off Shellbell....I am over 6 mos. now, off of 200 mcg of fentanyl...  I took it every three days for four years.  I found this site, in January, out of sheer desperation because of how I was feeling.  The positive news first, is that I have made it to where I am right now, and I got through times I swore I would not, during w/d.  Now for the bad news...it was bad, very bad for me.  It took much longer than the time it seemed to be taking others on different meds., to feel even a tiny bit better.  I was starting to think I was in big, big trouble....many people here welcomed me, and helped me to get through it all.  SO, it CAN be done, it's just really hard.  I had the runs and the anorexia (no appetite), for week, and you're right, nothing tasted good.  I could not eat for a full week, and when I resumed, it was small meals, and I had to force them down.  For me at least, none of this was the worst though...the sleeplessness and anxiety, and pain, were absolutely horrendous.  I did not sleep at all for something around 11-13 days...and then, after that, for months, only minutes at a time.  When I awoke from those minutes, the anxiety became much, much worse, so I almost dreaded those minutes of being blissfully unaware.  Drug dreams were vivid during those minutes too, as few as they were.  I took a bazillion baths for the pain, every OTC med available, besided every OTC med for sleep, and dealt with the restless leg thing for months too.  Gradually, the sleep became longer, but I have to say here, it took a really long time.  I was thrilled when I got to the point of three 20 minute stretches..  Somehow, my body seemed to adjust to this miniscule amount of sleep.  My appetite increased to the point of being ravenous for about a month too.  Wicked restlessness, and heart palpitations bothered me throughout this lovely journey, but again, I survived.  I still have some problems, but they really do seem to be almost gone at this point.  I suffer from pain as well, and that has been very hard.  I just recently started a new med., Lyrica, and it helps somewhat.  

I want to offer you support in your w/d from fentanyl...it was super hard for me, and I really was suicidal at points in it.  I'm telling you all of this to warn you in advance, so that you'll know to expect it.  I thought I was going through some freakish hell all on my own, and that I would never feel better.  It will all be ok eventually, it just takes time, alot of it, inner strength, and support.  I can help you with the support, as can alot of folks here.  

Anytime you want to talk, please PM me (private message).....I went through an awful time, and I could not have done it alone.  I am glad to help you in any way that I can.  

I know all of this seems scary, and it IS scary, but I also want you to get the message that you can get through this.  You may feel like you're gonna die, or that you have reached your limit and want to, but I swear you're not gonna die from it, and if you feel like you want to, dig deep and come here for support....hang strong through this and you WILL get through it.

Jacqui

[SHELLBELL79]

thanks

[GoingToMakeIt]

Google it and you will see. Be sure to Google the other opiates too so you can see the difference in 1/2 lives. I believe 1/2 life is how long 1/2 of the serum blood level is metabolized. So in this case in 7 hours 1/2 is gone then 1/2 of that in another 7 hours etc...
We have had several people here go through withdrawals on Fentanyl. It is a tough one. I sent one of them a message to come on here. If she is around, she will come on too. Her name here is jacqui805.

[SHELLBELL79]

ive been out of pain all day . i just feel, very weak and exusted. iam finally happy because um not screaming in pain.

[SHELLBELL79]

ok what does 7 hours mean? 7 hours to get out? where did u get your info?

[GoingToMakeIt]

Its 1/2 life is 7 hours. That is twice of even Heroin and most other opiates.