A year ago my soul was screaming at me to stop the pain medication. It was slowly suffocating me. I knew that if I continued down that path I would die- my soul was dying. I made the choice to go C/T and I told my family/friends/doctor and I found this wonderful site. Vicki, Sarah, Gnarly, BKitty, IBKLEEN, RNAngel were just some of the many lovely souls who reached out and guided me through those first dark days and cheered me on into the light. THANK YOU- to all of you from the bottom of my heart.
If you are struggling, suffering, on the fence, scared to jump, scared because you have jumped and you don't feel like you can hang on....Hang on. It's so worth it. And so are you.
One year ago I lived in bed in a haze of opiates and pain. I had lost my career, my love, my home, my self-respect. I got clean, I got support, I work on myself every day. At first it felt like the mountain was so high, and my load was so heavy- I would never make it. But I put one foot in front of the other and it is truly amazing the peaks I have climbed.
This year I got sober. This year I have achieved goals in my career I never thought possible. I own my own business. I bought my own home. I manage my pain and chronic illness entirely holistically. I practice yoga every day. I see a counsellor two/three times a month. I volunteer 10-15 hours a week with women who are caught in abuse/addiction cycles. I have a lot of love in my life. I feel blessed every day. I also have a lot of days where I feel totally bat%$#@ crazy!!! But I have learned that the key to happiness is being gentle with yourself. And that happiness is a choice. We write our own stories in life, and we can change the plot at any time. If your heart can believe, you can achieve. I wish this for everyone- faith, trust, belief in yourselves! You are worth it.
Thank you for all of your wisdom, your support, your kindness. I am forever grateful.
Much Love,
Lu