Opana & Oxycodone withdrawals

[cbrenner]

OK, I cannot believe that I am on my tenth day with no opana! I have no idea how I lived through that agony for the first 18 hours. Actually, I have an idea of how, it was running to my computer and reading every post I could find on withdrawals and how it was done. It was some of you helping me and babysitting me through the proper way to do it without killing myownself! So, nada opana but I am still on oxycodone. I have dropped down to about 35 mg oxy per 24 hours and last night, would you believe that I actually, in fact, slept thru what would normally be my time to wake up and take half a pill? Yes, indeed! I did!
Of course, this awful time just happens to coincide with one of the worse "falling off the alcoholic wagon" for my husband. He could not be more verbally abusive and terrible, thus I have had only support from those of you online who have helped me through this time. That and God!
I have absolutely no idea how each day went by with agonizingly slow hands of the clock, yet, here I am, 68 years old and despite doctors, my drunk husband, my beloved daughter terminally ill, and just moving to a place where I don't know anyone, having no transportation (Again, drunk husband lost the car too) and barely surviving financially, I am off the opana! I really am!
I think that I can now see how bad. or good, the arthrtis really is. I have had a lot of difficulty getting up out of a chair, walking longer than 20 feet and working this keyboard. Yet, I still feel better and, though this might sound silly, I feel more powerful! AND........I WILL get off the oxycodone! I will. I willl. I will. But this time, I am following the advice of those of you online (and you know who you are) that have been there, done that! It is much better to listen than to talk! Praise God and thank you!!!!!!!!

[cbrenner]

Thank you for your comments, really, thanks! Good idea, one day at a time, simple. not projecting tomorrow. Great advice. Blessings, C

[EvolverU]

C, I wish I could be there with you. That sounds just awful. I hope there's no physical danger, to you, here. It would be great if you could get to an Al-Anon meeting in your town. If you call them, someone might be able to pick you up. They do that, you know..You really need a support network.

I think what you did with the bank account is great but I am a little concerned about the wear and tear on you that might ensue in your home as a result.

Shaky hands? After what you've been through and the stress your under? Pretty understandable. Are you hydrating enough (2 to 3 litres of plain water per day)  & eating? How's your blood sugar? You must take care of yourself, C! I'm glad you got out of the house - less stressful.

You're right. His actions have absolutely nothing to do with you. This is his issue and he needs help. First and foremost though, is you, you, you. That should be your mantra. You deserve so much better than this. Please, let me know how it's going. We're here.

[cbrenner]

Hey, Right now, my husband is very drunk and screaming at me. He hasn't been to work in 3 days. Thank you for your support. I TRULY could NOT have done this without you.
Guess what I did today? I needed to get away from him so I went to church for a couple of hours and prayed. Then, I caught a bus. Elders can ride all day for 3 bucks! And since he trashed our mutual checking account, I opened my own and will have my ss go into something he cannot get at. Most likely I will pay a high price for doing that, but it was in my heart to do. I am so very dissappointed that he chose to drink again and as ever, I have no idea why. But this I DO KNOW, his actions have nothing to do with what I am supposed to do! Right? And this woman is going to listen to you, a wonderful stranger. You are a Godsend and I thank you. You support is wonderful. By the way, is sort of shaky hands normal? It has been happening for a couple of days now. Do you think it will go away? And the pain in my legs is soooo much better today. Yea! Gotta go. Love, C

[ricart70]

I totally understand what you mean when you say you feel more powerful.
Great job!!   Sometimes stubborn is good lol

[clean_in_ks]

10 HUGE DAYS---NO OPANA and only 35 mg/day of oxy??  You're one
AMAZIN woman!!!!!  After reading all the changes and situations you are dealing with currently in your life.......I just want to tell you how PROUD I am of you (and I don't really know you...lol)  You have Wisdom, Strength and Determination......and your attitude Rocks!!!

Should you get to a point where you want to go to a meeting, get some additional "skin on" support from someone in your new community and don't have transportation.......just know that if you pick up the phone.......someone will be there to come pick you up and help you get to where you want to go.

Keep on keepin on girl.......your enthusiam is contagious~

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on fighting the good fight. You have quite a positive attitude and that will set you free!

Don't let your husband's drinking get in your way. We're just as powerless over our spouses drinking as they are. Do your best, to take everything at face value, always looking at what is now rather than what may or may not happen in the future. If you pile the future on top of your task at hand it's quite  a burden for you to handle right now. Keep your life as simple as possible as you go through the next battle. You're going to do this!

[EvolverU]

Dear C., I'm just blown away. You have more determination and grit in your little finger than I've had for most of my life. I can't tell you how proud I am of you and how very, very happy I am to hear that you are getting some sleep. You are an absolute inspiration!

Also, congrats on your Oxy dose. Just wonderful. I know the challenges you are facing and my hat is off to you. I want to commend you on your wonderful attitude. I know that circumstances are quite difficult for you right now, but I'm pretty sure a resourceful lady like you will find the friends you need at church or in your neighborhood to give you the rides and support you need. In the meantime I'm here, we're here. Again, so very proud of you...Keep it up!