Oxycontin Addiction, Rock Bottom

[Demons_Within]

I have been Addicted to Oxy's for over a year and I snort over 100 mgs a day, My family recently found out about my addiction because my fiancee is so worried about me.  I have not been able to stop taking them for the last 6 months all the time when I can.  My Finances are a wreck, I am depressed as ever, I am trying to sell my house, I am about to be a father, and I just got sentenced with 3rd Degree assault for defending myself and breaking someones jaw on their property and I have to pay 30k in restitution for med bills and surgery.  I am at rock bottom and I feel like I am about to lose everything, I am a 20 year old junkie and I lie to my family and friends and scheme and hustle people to come up with money for drugs.  I hate who I have become and I feel like an empty shell, its a constant battle and I feel like I am possessed by a demon that just grabs hold of me and makes me binge away all of my money no matter what the consequences are.  Any advice from someone who has made it throught the withdrawals and on to recovery would be deeply appreciated as its only a matter of time before I lose everything I love in this world; my Fiancee, my Job, my family's support, my home, Oxycontin is a Demon that has enslaved me.

[Oxy480Jim]

You have already admitted you have a problem,  so now it's time to man up and take the next step- get yourself into a treatment centre.  It doesn't have to be where you are admitted into a program and given a room for 30 days, there are other options depending on your circumstances, and any other drugs or meds you are taking.
One option is a suboxone program, which is done on an outpatient basis if you qualify.
The only way to find out however, is to get yourself into a treatment center and ask.

You have a kid on the way, and a girl that loves for who you were before you became a slave to a drug.
If you want to be that kids Dad, and teach him how to be a man, enjoy the things of fatherhood like going fishing, camping, taking him to soccer games and little league baseball,  Then you know that there is only one thing you can do.

First however, you have to want to be clean yourself.

[intelectualbrat]

Im 45 yr old mother of 4...I lost my husband and my brother all in the same day in a fishing trip, 10 yrs later i remarried and i just lost my husband 4 yrs ago due to Cancer, I have raised all my kids on my own. I have always been very strong but  lately im falling apart, i dont know if everything it catching up with me or what. My 24 yr old got addicted to Oxycontin due to a pancriatic attack, he never told me what was going on. Me i was always taking percocets on and off, I never knew the effects of these pills or what they do to u, I never did drugs growing up so i wasnt aware of what was out there for recreiation till one day i fell 12 stairs down (concrete) and i was all brusied up and my brother gave me a Blue pill, it made me feel great i thought i was in heaven, nothing affected me, i felt no pain everything was just right..My brother was giving me 2 a day because i told him i waas in pain..I wasnt in any pain at all i just wanted it to feel good.Till i mentioned to my son how i was getting sweatty at night and restless, so he told me "sis u r going thru whidrawls and u need to stop" so im like WHAT? Little do i know my son was taking the same thing and he came to my room and said he would kick my brothers *** if he knew he was giving them to me, he didnt want me taking it because it was bad. I felt so bad when he told me what he was going thru....I tried to help him..I kept off them, it wasnt hard because it had only been a few weeks..I moved to Georgia and took my son with me, I locked him in a room for a week but not before taing him to the ER and they checked him out and they gave me some pain med and he said just go ahead and wean him off, and i did...Today im hooked on hydrocodones or Percocets anything that contains Opiath, when i dont have it i cry and go thru withdraws, I dont know what to do because I still have 2 teenagers at home and I need to be strong a little longer and I can't do it...please someone help me write me email me....these whidrawsa are terrible. ***@**** all of you keep strong and all i can say is that you need someone there for you, u cant do this alone. u need the love, even though its tough love but u need someone that cares by ur side.

[clean_junkie]

hey i was exatcly where you are  swirling the drain on the edge of losing my life  i was taking 90 mg at a time if i could afford it  and i couldnt  so i just started selling my ****  and i finally just gave up  and called a doctor and set an app and showed up  i withdrew for 24 hours and then they gave me subutex and it worked ive been clean for 2 and a half weeks and its great  it is hard a **** to get here but i did    you just have to nut up and do it man  thats the most honest thing i can tell you

[jt808]

man u really gota read my story mite make u thnk bout the realization of what ur lossing its the one few above urs titled ROCK BOTTOM...MY STORY... u really have gota quite u have a fiancee that im sure u wouldnt no what to do if she left u and it def could happan if u dont clean ur act up bro plz read my story and ,message me if u wana talk bout anythng and i really hope u get it together b4 its to late u dont wana be alone trust me esp. during thsi time at least i didnt so good luck and let me no if anythng i can do.

[jlphillips24]

Yes, I have some advice, I'm Jennifer, 33 yo and I have battled with oxycontin and oxycodone for 3 year, aprox 80 mg a day and the truth is your going to ruin your life, and you are young and can change that right now. I'll tell u what I have done so far
I went to detox because its very very hard to do this alone, and yes it sucked, but it needed to happen. Now I'm back home, on day four, and things are looking up, I am now using the Thomas Recipe which you can google, except I've cut out the klonopin so I'm coming out of the fog now. You will need some immodium for your stomach, but beyond all this whithdrawal bleepen bleeep, there is a good life waiting for you. I'm only on day four and I'm starting to feel things I haven't felt in years. What happy feels like, u don't really feel it under the influence of the opiates. I feel better than I have in soooooo long! Today I went to a suboxone clinic, I am considering the drug, if you don't know about it go to www.suboxone.com and check it out, it will stop your cravings for the drugs immediately! Only problem is its expense, I've heard about 25 a pill, insurance will likely cover that if you have it, if not, its still cheaper than what your spending right now I'm sure, and the long term goal is to live a sobor life. You don't have to be enslaved trust me, I was saying the same **** as you four days ago.
Jennifer

[disFUNctional]

It is the demon and it will steal away everything...withdrawl ***** but it is so worth it.  In a couple weeks time you will feel like a new man...do it for the baby...do it for YOURSELF!!!
I am now at 31 days and feel great...was it rough...yes   was it the hardest thing I have ever done in my life...yes    but worth every damn second.
We are here for you!
Love,
Kim