Oxycontin Withdrawal Hell

[discretekarma]

I was prescribed 20 mg Oxycintin x 3 a day about 6 months ago due to having 2 ruptured discs in my back.  My body started getting used to the meds so my doctor moved me up to 3 x 40mg a day.  After a while of this, my body started to get used to this as well.  I told me doctor about what was going on and he didn't change my meds this time.  I was in pain and going in to withdrawal in between doses so I began to take 4 a day even though my script was only for 3.  I was able to get my prescriptions early for a while and now this has cought up to me.  I had a 30 day script but since I filled it two weeks early and was taking 1 extra a day it ran out 3 weeks early.  Yesterday my script ran out and I went to my appt. I knew he wouldn't write my script 3 weeks early since it was only a 4 week script so I told him I lost my script.  He said he wouldn't write me another and that all he could do is write me a 10mg x 3 a day script.  That meand I'd be going from 160mg a day to 30mg a day.  I had a few panic attacks in the day or two before my appt while trying to ween myself down.  Since yesterday I've taken enough of the 10mg to keep myself from having another attack.  I think I've been taking aroung 100mg per day instead of 160mg.  I can't keep this up since my new script will end in about a week which is still 2 weeks short of getting a refill.   I told my wife what was going on this morning since I am so scared of facing another panic attack when the severe withdrawal starts back up. I've read stories about this taking 2-3 weeks to be over.  I am so scared.  My wife told me she's going to talk to my doctor before deciding what to do.  I'm don't think he'll care about me being in pain or withdrawal or anxiety as long as he doesn't get in trouble.   I've asked my wife to let me go to a methadone clinic near my house but she thinks I should just go through it since I am the one that did this to myself.  I'm really scared and don't know what to do.  Thanks for any advice or support.

[GoingToMakeIt]

The horrible chronic pain doesn't have a good answer here. I wish it did.

[discretekarma]

The main problem for me is that I need a two level fusion and workers comp is denying it and sending me to PT instead.  I'm in so much pain all the time that it's just crazy.  I don't know how the hell I'm going to do physical therapy in the ammount of pain that I'm in.

[GoingToMakeIt]

I take payments in dark chocolate. LOL
I know someone who has long term pain that switched to methadone. It is a similar story as your wifes. At least they can function a somewhat normal life.

[discretekarma]

Or a pie if you prefer pie.

[discretekarma]

I posted something similar to this on Spine-Health forums and all I've received is criticism.  They have all told me that I'm a drug addict and don't need pain medicine to begin with as if they know how much pain I've been in.  

I really have to thank everyone on here for being so supportive without judging me.  The last thing I need at a time like this is to be judged.  

Thanks to you all for being so great to me without even knowing me.  If I could buy a cake for each one of you I would.  

[discretekarma]

I've been up for about 48 hours now. I made appointments for a doctor that can prescribe Subaxon but my wife insisted.  Part of her wants me to suffer fot what I did and the other part of her doesn't want to waste the money since she knows that I'll have to continue using pain meds since I have 2 ruptured discs, 3 bulging discs, and will need surgery soon as well.  She called the PMD and told him what is going on and that I was taking one extra pill a day and he told her to make an appointment for Monday.  I think he''s going to work with me since she'll be the one giving me the pills from now on.  I still don't think he'll write the script before 3 weeks.  All I can do is cross my fingers because I'm in so much pain (not only withdrawal pain). We'll see.