Oxycontin opiates Help me.

[ianess]

Hello well I started off at a young age with prescription pain killers my father had a few reconstructive surgeries after breaking his back in a work related accident he became addictted to the pain killers he recieved because of that when i started high school i looked up the drugs he was being prescribed and saw that they got you high and i began to take them he would just have bottles of 90 lortabs lying around so id take a handfull and sell them and take them myself after my mother noticed he had a problem and was actually buying the pills online she made him go to a detox program where they put him on suboxone i was not addicted to the drugs well i loved the feeling but i did not have intense withdrawal symptoms, as a year or so went by some of my friends started doing and selling Oxycontin and they offered me some here and there and i loved it id take a pill chew it about once or twice a month and id try and buy norcos or vicadins whenever i found them. now for the past 2 months Ive gone through some depression and i started taking my fathers suboxone to get high and when i couldn't get my hands on it id wait for it to go through my system and buy some oxy from my friends or methadone if he had any and this is the circle i find myself in right now between suboxone methadone and oxy i have never experienced some of the symptoms of withdrawal like cramping pains and so on but i have been very anxious to get the drugs when i cant and i feel very shaky and upset when i cant get them and this affects my everyday life at work or wherever i am. i do not know what to do. or if i am bad enough to go to a treatment center, or have any idea what to do i just need to stop. i hope i could get some advice anything helps. thank you

[ianess]

Thank a lot man yeah ive been sleeping a lot, and i'm gonna go to cvs later and pick up some supplements and stuff to help out. I have work tomorrow i really hope that it will not be to bad tomorrow this will really be the testing ground if i can make it through tomorrow at work them i think ill be able to make it threw the rest of these w/ds. thanks again all and ill keep posting on my progress.

[DrewBoy7]

That is the start of it all! Hold in there and try to keep your mind focused on "good things" stay busy! If you start to get that nitch! get some good supplements and take LONG showers and try to sweet it out! SLEEP as much as possible! That always helped me! If you have a relapes only go w/ the subs so that you will not have the crave's hand in there its all in the mind! DrewBoy7

[ianess]

OK its been 40 hrs since my last pill hasn't been to bad yet except for the mild diarrhea i know the worst part is yet to come wish me luck thank you all for taking the time to post on here to help me out.

[DrewBoy7]

Yes you are addicted! I was addicted to Oczycotin and Oxzycodone for 2 years! If you are taking suboxone-methadone to get high you need to go to a rehab center and stay clean for 6-7 days and get it out of you system completely! I had the same friends for years and when i started mt treatment I had to cut them off completly cause you can have that bad influence in your life when you are trying to get clean! Stay strong and do it for yourself and family! Welcome to the forum and talk to us all we are here to help!!! DrewBoy7

[ianess]

thank you all so much for the response, i realized that i am actually physically addicted and need to stop now. After a whole day of trying to get oxy and not being able to getting home pissed off at the world, i felt sick to my stomach because because of these things and knew that i was actually withdrawing i couldn't believe it, i realized that this isn't for me. i felt so ashamed of myself and still do. i got home and took the only thing i could get witch is suboxone i guess it was a blessing that i couldn't find the oxy because now if i get one i wont get high from it and hopefully i can soon ween off of this and be clean. Ive been taking a pill a day for the last 2 days gonna try and ween off as fast as possible to try and get the least w/d possible before i stop it all, its hard to just cut off contact with the ppl who are influencing me i care for them so much and hope that if i can get clean i can help them get clean as well.  once again thank you all for the advice and support.

[10356]

Hello and welcome to the forum.. From what I have read You need to make a decision as to how you want to live.. Our minds are powerful tools when once we use them to back a firm decision.. Like mentioned above drop the guy that is giving and selling you these drugs.. You can do this.. The anxiety you feel is normal as your mind and body are getting use to relying on a substance.. Only you can stop this.. If you could speak to your mom it would be wonderful as she sounds as if she would be a firm support.. There are many ways to get clean but none will work until You decide to make them work.. I wish you a good life that is drug free as the ones you are using will eventually lead you too a true addiction that will not be so easy to put behind you.. Get on it now while the getting is good.. When you crave go for a walk swimming ride a bike clean the house.. in other words occupy your mind and body and it will soon pass.. I can say living my life clean is so damn much easier then when I was using.. I wish you a decision soon.. lesa

[worried878]

u r addicted i would think..only u know for sure...like ella said..gotta cut off suppluy..change friends if need be...if u r not physically addicted u r gona be soon...people do this on their own with support or meetings...others do need inpatient rehab...lots of support here so keep posting

[Ella789]

You sound like you definately are addicted, to just about anything you can get to get you by.   You really need to give up the pills but as long as your friends have them and will give or sell them to you, then there is little to say that will help you.

  If you want to detox, then you will have to be commited to the quit and be prepared to feel like you have the flu for abt. 5-7 days.  Then you should start to feeling better and the worst of the W/D will be over with.  Find the Thomas Recipe in the Health Pages and see what is on there that you can gather.  You will need the immodium, otc pain meds, hot baths or showers and a strong will to make it through.  I hope you will quit, it isn't easy but it is doable.  I wish you luck and keep posting if you need more help, someone will come on to answer your post,  sometimes it is slow on here.