Oxycontin withdrawal depression

[shannonhoon]

I'm on day 6 of withdrawal of 2x40 mg a day for the last four months, I did take more at times and really feared getting addicted so I quit cold turkey last Saturday, it's been hell on earth.  I'm now on day 6 and still sick but more emotionally (very depressed with periods of anxiety)  I'm taking clonipine which was prescribed at emerge where I also got a shot of morphine to stop the tremors.  I'm really scared and refuse to go back, my doctor will probably fire me as a patient but I can't be on those drugs period.  I have severe back pain.  I will take tylenol 3 for really bad episodes but nothing else, i hope he agrees.  Any help or encouragement greatly needed.

[goldenarm]

Yea you are detoxing hard. I feel for you, Terrible that we have to go thru this, today im 46 hrs in and i ate some 1/4s of the sub and my detox is acceptable now.Still feel bad but nothing like i would, I defied my Dr too and im only taking 1/3 the amount he told me to take and im going to do it a fraction of the time he wanted me too, HE told me 6 months and then we will talk about tapering,! I think not. Just trying to get rid of the worst part..Hope you are feeling better today , i think you have a good plan and you will make it..

[cathy5841]

keep on keepin on, you can do this...i was on ALOT of oxy, even snorted it and ihave 489 days clean.  you can do it...that first week or so will test you then the physical gets better and the mental kicks in...be prepared it can get hard.  have you checked out some na/aa or some type therapy, you really need aftercare to make a longterm recovery.  some have done it with out the after care, but few are successfull....check it out and keep posting.

[shannonhoon]

Hi thanks for the response, I'm really glad you're trying to quit this killer but it's a killer.  I'm still somwhat physically ill with chills and I have no appetite so I'm drinking ensure better then nothing, I have to choke it down though.  It takes a lot of determination and a good support person to help when you start freaking.  My husband flushed every f'n pill down the toilet including some I needed, the clonazepam which is recommended to take.   I detoxed at home but soon realized it was a big mistake but I was just to sick to go so I called the detox facility often and they helped me a lot.  One of the workers recommended I take tylenol 3 and to have my husband dish it out and that's only when the pain brings me to my knees.  The clonazepam I'll worry about later.  I also have sleeping pills which I'll worry about later.  The big one right now is the oxy's so I'm going to give it my all.  But I know now that I have the potential to be a huge abuser of this drug and I know that my doctor is not me.  He'll probably be pissed as hell when I see him tomorrow because I tried Tramadol and cried so he put me on the fentenyl patch which made me really sick and depressed so then he changed me to 10 mg to start a took me right off the patch so I was sick for 3 days.  I thought this would be the same scenerio but SURPRISE.  I have a very sick mom who lives 2 hours away and that's a big motivator.  My fear is that I suffered a serious bout of depression 5 years ago and I don't want to revisit that, I had to be hospitalized.  But to get off this **** I'm willing to have electro shock therapy.  I may be sick and weak willed to have started that drug but I'm going to fight this to the bitter end.  My family sisters brother of very judgemental of me because they feel I haven't done enough to get better from my back pain but I saw the best most conservative neurosurgeon and she said NO surgery, It's inoperable.  So I just want everybody to leave me the hell alone then.  I'm getting really snappy which is not the usual me but I'm past fed up.  Good news, my husband suggested I listen to a relaxation tape which I did and I fell asleep eventually today even though my heart was racing and I was freaking.  I'll keep you posted.

[goldenarm]

I know how u r feeling, i was on Oxy 40s x 3 a day for my back and vics and did a 2 yr run. I tried a couple times but couldnt get to where you are at , went back on them then i got SUboxone and im 2 days into the detox, the first 24 hrs was really rough as i weened down to a cuple a day at the end and days 2, 3, 4, are so miseralbe that i go crazy , With that said i took some of the prescribed Sub and i feel better and it made them very mild ,BUT they come with a price as well, read on and you will see what i mean, You are over the worst part i think and it will get better. Please post and let us know how u r doin.I think you have it just about beat..