Pain medication/opiate withdrawal

[atblondie85]

Hi,
I'm a 28 yo female who had a bad accident in 2010 resulting in numerous injuries. I just had MAJOR back surgery 9 months ago and still need surgery to repair my left hip which is torn as well, a broken tailbone, bone spurs in my pelvis, and after all the imaging for those thing found out I have a bone fusing disorder which has spread to already multiple places.
I'm a RN and despite being in severe pain I just don't want to do this anymore, I don't abuse the medication but I do occasionally need to take more than one pill then I fall a few days short. I'm on OxyContin and I swear those few days are absolute hell, withdrawal from that has got to be the most miserable thing I've EVER experienced.
I'm trying to build my hours back up to take a FMLA leave for surgery and if I didn't have the medication I don't think I could even make it through the whole shift but I don't like the person it has made me. I feel like the medications are controlling my life and I'm actually going to try some alternative meds/therapy until surgery.
But I'm on day 3 of this and I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I have clonidine patches but I'm severely depressed, in pain, can't sleep, sweat freeze sweat freeze CONSTANTLY, can barely get out of bed, and haven't stopped crying for days :(
Is there ANYTHING else that will help ease these symptoms?  I just want my life back.
Thank you

[atblondie85]

I want to be done for good....I already know I still have a lot of surgeries still to go through. I hate myself and what the meds have done to me mentally. It's just not fair. Tonight was the worst, it's hard to be a mother, wife, and take care of my patients. Most ppl in my life have no idea. Id rather chop my finger off lol.
Thanks for the advice :)

[ROSYouralright]

I'm sorry to hear about all the pain you are experiencing! I KNOW it's not easy!! Wd's are NO FUN but the good news is THEY DON'T LAST FOREVER and soon you will be feeling better and better..... It's a nasty cycle with the pills.... Congrats on deciding to take your life back! YOU CAN DO IT! As stated above READ the THOMAS RECIPE and use what you think will help you! STAY HYDRATED! FLUIDS, FLUIDS, and MORE FLUIDS! You are NOT ALONE in this battle! We are all fighting it with you! Are you done for good or just until you get your refill?

[HappyDays2Come]

Hi and welcome! I'm so sorry about your accident and the pain you're experiencing. Good for you for making the decision to get off the pills and to look into alternate forms of pain management (there are many on here who have done the same, and with great success)! When I went through w/ds I purchased all of the vitamins/supplements in the Thomas Recipe (I still take the vitamins), get some Ensure / Gatorade (must stay hydrated and you can live on Ensure if you can't eat), get some epsom salt (I lived in the bath for the first couple of days), bananas / saltine crackers. Remember to be patient and to take it minute-by-minute. The first 48 hrs were the worst for me but some say day 3/4 are just as bad (I, actually, felt a little better by day 3). You should be feeling some relief very soon and the worst of the physical stuff should be ending shortly. Please keep posting on here...you'll find so much support. Keep us updated on how you're doing!