Pain meds vs Alcohol

[Hinkster]

Hello everyone,
I am prescribed 90 40mg oxys and 270 5mg roxicodones a month for
neuropathy. IT's been this way for a year. I've just about had
enough of these meds as I know they are killing me. I used to
drink alot of beer every day but since I've been on the meds I
have not drank as much as an ounce of beer. If I quit the meds
(I've got all the stuff from Thomas's recipe) I know I'll go
back to drinking. I'am torn up on which way to go. I quit smoking
14 months ago cold turkey so I do believe I can quit the meds,
although it will be tough with this habbit and the length I've
been on the meds. Does anyone have an idea which way I should go?
Also I too have been banned from the other web site. I did'nt do
anything wrong.
                       Thanks Tom

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your post was far from meaningless...  painful but true..  i dont think ANYONE on here can say anything meaningless...  its our refuge where we dont have to hide..  your message was a perfect example of that J.B.!  i am so happy you made the right decision with your wifes medication.  i feel that each time one of us turns away from taking that little pill, or that drink, or that cigarette, that injection, one person who struggles to be clean gets one step closer....  thank you J.B.!

prayers and peace....  stars

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

I enjoyed scanning through some of the posts here tonight.  It seems like sex(libido)came up a few times.  Actually, the sex drive is a dead giveaway as to how you are doing both physically and mentally.  When it's gone down the tubes, beware!  In my opinion, antidepressants can wreck havoc with libido and opiates simply step in and replace it.  

When we regain that feeling that we "want to look attractive" and somewhat outgoing...it's wonderful!  During my bouts with narcotic and alcohol addiction, I didn't care enough about myself to even be someone that you'ld want to talk to.  Bad hair, bad breath, bad clothes, bad attitude and so on.  I was the anonymus drunk/junkie with no time for real life, being totally into myself. Sadly, nobody even knew my name!

So, you eventually end up with yourself, by yourself and you loathe yourself.  Pistol and ball would likely be more than merciful at this point, but most choose the prolonged suicide attempt of addiction.  This post is meaningless to most of you but I had to get it out of my system and hear myself speak to myself.  Just minutes ago, I had several more tabs of morphine in my hand and put them back in the bottle...they are meant for my wife's pain, not mine!

J.B.

[CASEY]

I totally hear you regarding your self neglect. My 20 year old heroin addicted son looks like ****. It is heartbreaking to see but I have let so much go. He is living in someone's basement. When he comes here, he eats a little and sleeps then goes back for more. He could clean up but he doesn't even change his underwear. This is a total change for him. I love him and have offered treatment but I don't think he believes he can stay clean so won't bother. He detoxed in the hospital last month when he had endocarditis but went back to the streets. He knows we love him and the door is open but we can't make him change. What is it going to take to get him into treatment? We are all dying a slow death. I do go to alanon but there's no magic bullet. How did you get clean? Gina

[freedfrmhell]

hi all,  i have come into this forum and listened for a couple of months now,  you people are the greatest inspiration ANYBODY could have.  i luckily am not an addict of any kind....i quit smoking cigs a couple of months ago and have not had a smoke or drag off one since 01-10-02....im very proud it sucked and was very hard....however reading your posts every day helped me tremendously...my son is 19 and i just found out about a month ago that he was smoking crystal meth on a daily basis....he came to me and admitted he needed help....we put him in an out patient detox for 7 days....as far as i know he hasn't done any drugs since except for smoking weed.....he has no reason to lie to me now that he has come clean with the truth so i believe him....maybe im a little naive...i hope not...what my real problem is...is that he also got my 17yr old to do it too....he knows that i know also...but he swears he doens't have a problem...however...since my oldest came home from detox...the younger one says his brother died the day he came home...he says the older one is possessed by satan....is this all in his messed up mind because he was doing the meth too??...the older one says it is....but im lost...im 38 and have never dealt with these types of drugs before....please help and give me some insight...these two hate eachother right now...my youngest is clean now and staying with an older friend that he is close to, who would never allow him to have drugs around him...thanks all for your help...i know you have troubles of your own and i thank you for taking time to listen to mine....you all are the best...thanks..

addictsmom

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radioboy....  are you in the radio business?  everytime i see your name i think of the days when i was in the early to mid 70's..  the perks and drugs were great!  sometimes i wonder how i survived that!  guess it all helped me become who i am today...  

i am surprised the trazadone isn't helping you...  that was the only was i could get any sleep..  some nights i took alittle higher dose just to pull me through.  maybe you need a higher mg.?  is that something you can get?  check with your doctor.  nothing else worked for me.  i had a few xanax left and they helped also...  trying strecthing also before you go to bed.  as hard as it was i laid on the floor and strecthed out like crazy..  it seem to make my getting into bed more comfortable..  i wish you luck and peace...  hang in there!  

love and prayers.....  stars

p.s.  one more thing...  soak in a hot bath with epsom salts...  that was also a great help....

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hinkster!!!!  walk dude!!!  move your feet around..  i'm tellin ya these feelings are temporary!!!!  being addicted may not!!  again as i have said before, our withdrawls are a small price to pay!!!  i want you to be strong!!!  i lift you in prayer Tom!  please be stronger than your medication, because WE ALL have the power to overcome... i found it easier incorporating God into my struggle...  pull from what ever stronger power you can...  hang in there, please!!!! wish i could take your pain away!!!  i am with you in thought and prayer...  love and peace... stars